tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-202718242024-03-06T22:57:58.448-06:00wanderlustBlack feminist musings on diaspora, politics, social justice, pop culture and everything in between...Courtney Desiree Morrishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04877422685485639690noreply@blogger.comBlogger79125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20271824.post-45244868250813996772010-02-26T17:17:00.001-06:002010-02-26T17:17:41.194-06:00Someterán a quimioterapia a "Amalia" · ElNuevoDiario.com.ni<a href=http://www.elnuevodiario.com.ni/nacionales/69140>Someterán a quimioterapia a "Amalia" · ElNuevoDiario.com.ni</a><br /><br />Posted using <a href="http://sharethis.com">ShareThis</a>Courtney Desiree Morrishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04877422685485639690noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20271824.post-14701888288804856532010-02-17T20:23:00.001-06:002010-02-17T20:23:20.346-06:00112-year-old Sacramento woman plans to give a performance for the ages - Sacramento News - Local and Breaking Sacramento News | Sacramento Bee<a href=http://www.sacbee.com/topstories/story/2542081.html?storylink=omni_popular>112-year-old Sacramento woman plans to give a performance for the ages - Sacramento News - Local and Breaking Sacramento News | Sacramento Bee</a><br /><br />Posted using <a href="http://sharethis.com">ShareThis</a>Courtney Desiree Morrishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04877422685485639690noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20271824.post-85282693457145580892009-08-04T22:08:00.006-05:002009-08-04T22:30:19.034-05:00Congolese Soldiers Have a New Strategy -- Raping Men<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjyC0s_1sVTAVT1fawrjVfUcsWaiVydOc8ikpBwgD6WX9xFR6fcSQfx7G3xSdX2L64eDn_9r2x8BVs6PeXw4y4zF9sstNzaCYdpM64SQ8bhKS9IwffRKk0ydsZIh2nBmFOk_LXG/s1600-h/05congo_600.jpg"><img style="margin: 0pt 0pt 10px 10px; float: right; cursor: pointer; width: 383px; height: 211px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjyC0s_1sVTAVT1fawrjVfUcsWaiVydOc8ikpBwgD6WX9xFR6fcSQfx7G3xSdX2L64eDn_9r2x8BVs6PeXw4y4zF9sstNzaCYdpM64SQ8bhKS9IwffRKk0ydsZIh2nBmFOk_LXG/s320/05congo_600.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5366315088237806914" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="font-family:georgia;">Soldiers are raping men in the Congo. I really do not know what to say. On one h</span></span><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="font-family:georgia;">an</span></span><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="font-family:georgia;">d, I am troubled that we live in a patriarchal culture that sanctions sexual violence agai</span></span><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="font-family:georgia;">nst women but when men are subjected to the same kinds of patriarchal violence it’s front page news, in The New York Times, no less. On the other hand, I know very well, how isolating thi</span></span><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="font-family:georgia;">s experience must be for the men who were assaulted. In the end it demonstrates that rape</span></span><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="font-family:georgia;"> and sexual violence are considered to be leg</span></span><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="font-family:georgia;">itimate weapons of war and that the state, in this case the Congolese Army, will not hesitate to use them when they think necessary.<br /><br /></span><span style="font-family:georgia;">Tragically, these men who have been raped find that their experiences mirror those of women who were the victims of the same violence. Rather than help them, people in their communities deride them, calling them “bush wives.” One survivor stated “The people in my village say: ‘You’re no longer a man. Those men in the bush made you their wife.’” Of course, that is precisely the point, the soldiers are raping men, in their efforts to weaken the resolve of Congolese rebels and “humiliate and demoralize Congolese communities into submission.” And their stories are horrific -- one man was raped by five soldiers, another thrown on the ground in his casava patch and raped by three soldiers. Another was raped along with his wife and daughter. What are these men to do when no one takes their victimization seriously? I am not suggesting that the violence done against them is worse than what happens to women, but because of patriarchy and how sexual violence against women is normalized there are at least spaces to name that violence. Patriarchy denies men those spaces and I think part of the work of gender justice is also learning to understand how patriarchy hurts both men and women. </span> <span style="font-family:georgia;"><br /><br />This story just made me sick to my stomach and I didn’t know what to say. The article in the New York Times included photographs of some of the survivors (see above), men who were brave enough to come forward and publicly name their experiences. Their faces stay with me, I cannot get them out of my mind. When will this end, when will human beings stop enacting such brutal violence against each other?</span> <br /><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">I wish I knew the answer.</span> <span style="font-family:georgia;"><br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">New York Times</span></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">Latest Tragic Symbol of an Unhealed Congo: Male Rape Victims</span> <span style="font-family:georgia;"><br />By JEFFREY GETTLEMAN</span> <span style="font-family:georgia;"><br />August 4, 2009</span> <br /><span style="font-family:georgia;"><br />GOMA, Congo — It was around 11 p.m. when armed men burst into Kazungu Ziwa’s hut, put a machete to his throat and yanked down his pants. Mr. Ziwa is a tiny man, about four feet, six inches tall. He tried to fight back, but said he was quickly beaten down.</span> <span style="font-family:georgia;"><br /><br />“Then they raped me,” he said. “It was horrible, physically. I was dizzy. My thoughts just left me.”</span> <span style="font-family:georgia;"><br /><br />For years, the thickly forested hills and clear, deep lakes of eastern Congo have been a reservoir of atrocities. Now, it seems, there is another growing problem: men raping men.</span> <span style="font-family:georgia;"><br /><br />According to Oxfam, Human Rights Watch, United Nations officials and several Congolese aid organizations, the number of men who have been raped has risen sharply in recent months, a consequence of joint Congo-Rwanda military operations against rebels that have uncapped an appalling level of violence against civilians.</span> <span style="font-family:georgia;"><br /><br />Aid workers struggle to explain the sudden spike in male rape cases. The best answer, they say, is that the sexual violence against men is yet another way for armed groups to humiliate and demoralize Congolese communities into submission.</span> <span style="font-family:georgia;"><br /><br />The United Nations already considers eastern Congo the rape capital of the world, and Secretary of State Hillary Rodham Clinton is expected to hear from survivors on her visit to the country next week. Hundreds of thousands of women have been sexually assaulted by the various warring militias haunting these hills, and right now this area is going through one of its bloodiest periods in years.</span> <span style="font-family:georgia;"><br /><br />The joint military operations that began in January between Rwanda and Congo, David and Goliath neighbors who were recently bitter enemies, were supposed to end the murderous rebel problem along the border and usher in a new epoch of cooperation and peace. Hopes soared after the quick capture of a renegade general who had routed government troops and threatened to march across the country.</span> <span style="font-family:georgia;"><br /><br />But aid organizations say that the military maneuvers have provoked horrific revenge attacks, with more than 500,000 people driven from their homes, dozens of villages burned and hundreds of villagers massacred, including toddlers thrown into open fires.</span> <span style="font-family:georgia;">And it is not just the rebels being blamed.<br /><br />According to human rights groups, soldiers from the Congolese Army are executing civilians, raping women and conscripting villagers to lug their food, ammunition and gear into the jungle. It is often a death march through one of Africa’s lushest, most stunning tropical landscapes, which has also been the scene of a devastatingly complicated war for more than a decade.</span> <span style="font-family:georgia;"><br /><br />“From a humanitarian and human rights perspective, the joint operations are disastrous,” said Anneke Van Woudenberg, a researcher for Human Rights Watch.</span> <span style="font-family:georgia;"><br /><br />The male rape cases span several hundred miles and possibly include hundreds of victims. The American Bar Association, which runs a sexual violence legal clinic in Goma, said that more than 10 percent of its cases in June were men.</span> <span style="font-family:georgia;"><br /><br />Brandi Walker, an aid worker at Panzi hospital in nearby Bukavu, said, “Everywhere we go, people say men are getting raped, too.”</span> <span style="font-family:georgia;">But nobody knows the exact number. Men here, like anywhere, are reluctant to come forward. Several who did said they instantly became castaways in their villages, lonely, ridiculed figures, derisively referred to as “bush wives.”</span> <span style="font-family:georgia;"><br /><br />Since being raped several weeks ago, Mr. Ziwa, 53, has not shown much interest in practicing animal medicine, his trade for years. He limps around (his left leg was crushed in the attack) in a soiled white lab coat with “veterinaire” printed on it in red pen, carrying a few biscuit-size pills for dogs and sheep.</span> <br /><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">“Just thinking about what happened to me makes me tired,” he said.</span> <span style="font-family:georgia;">The same is true for Tupapo Mukuli, who said he was pinned down on his stomach and gang-raped in his cassava patch seven months ago. Mr. Mukuli is now the lone man in the rape ward at Panzi hospital, which is filled with hundreds of women recovering from rape-related injuries. Many knit clothes and weave baskets to make a little money while their bodies heal.</span> <span style="font-family:georgia;">But Mr. Mukuli is left out.</span> <br /><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">“I don’t know how to make baskets,” he said. So he spends his days sitting on a bench, by himself.</span> <br /><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">The male rape cases are still just a fraction of those against women. But for the men involved, aid workers say, it is even harder to bounce back.</span> <span style="font-family:georgia;"><br /><br />“Men’s identity is so connected to power and control,” Ms. Walker said.</span> <span style="font-family:georgia;">And in a place where homosexuality is so taboo, the rapes carry an extra dose of shame.</span> <span style="font-family:georgia;">“I’m laughed at,” Mr. Mukuli said. “The people in my village say: ‘You’re no longer a man. Those men in the bush made you their wife.’ ”</span> <br /><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">Aid workers here say the humiliation is often so severe that male rape victims come forward only if they have urgent health problems, like stomach swelling or continuous bleeding. Sometimes even that is not enough. Ms. Van Woudenberg said that two men whose penises were cinched with rope died a few days later because they were too embarrassed to seek help. Castrations also seem to be increasing, with more butchered men showing up at major hospitals.</span> <span style="font-family:georgia;"><br /><br />Last year, Congo’s rape epidemic appeared to be easing a bit, with fewer cases reported and some rapists jailed. But today, it seems like that thin veneer of law and order has been stripped away. The way villagers describe it, it is open season on civilians.</span> <span style="font-family:georgia;"><br /><br />Muhindo Mwamurabagiro, a tall, graceful woman with long, strong arms, explained how she was walking to the market with friends when they were suddenly surrounded by a group of naked men.</span> <span style="font-family:georgia;"><br /><br />“They grabbed us by the throat and threw us down and raped us,” she said.</span> <span style="font-family:georgia;">Worse, she said, one of the rapists was from her village.</span> <span style="font-family:georgia;">“I yelled, ‘Father of Kondo, I know you, how can you do this?’”</span> <br /><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">One mother said a United Nations peacekeeper raped her 12-year-old boy. A United Nations spokesman said that he had not heard that specific case but that there were indeed a number of new sexual abuse allegations against peacekeepers in Congo and that a team was sent in late July to investigate.</span> <br /><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">Congolese health professionals are becoming exasperated. Many argue for a political solution, not a military one, and say Western powers should put more pressure on Rwanda, which is widely accused of preserving its own stability by keeping the violence on the other side of the border.</span> <br /><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">“I understand the world feels guilty about what happened in Rwanda in 1994,” said Denis Mukwege, the lead doctor at Panzi Hospital, referring to Rwanda’s genocide. “But shouldn’t the world feel guilty about what’s happening in Congo today?”</span> </span>Courtney Desiree Morrishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04877422685485639690noreply@blogger.com19tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20271824.post-82382266538965215252009-07-26T13:49:00.002-05:002009-07-26T14:00:11.897-05:00Assiya Rafiq: Fighting Sexual Violence in PakistanI sat down and just wrote a letter to the President of Pakistan. If he's anything like ours he probably won't ever read it but that's not the point. I was deeply moved by the story of Assiya Rafiq, a very brave young Pakistani woman who is demanding the prosecution of the two criminals and four police officers who raped and brutalized her . I think her story is compelling not only for exposing the sexual violence that rural Pakistani women are often subjected to but because of the way it reveals how processes of patriarchy, state corruption, and gender violence intersect. If you can, please write a letter to the Pakistani government in support of Miss Rafiq. There is a growing grassroots movement led by women to end sexual violence, particularly in rural communities and we should all try to support as much as possible. Working here in Bluefields, Nicaragua, I have been confronted with how pervasive sexual violence against women is here and how the silence of both the state and civil society reproduces the conditions that facilitate such violence. I don't think American feminists (of any color) should impose political projects on women in the Global South. But when those women are building an organic, grassroots movement for gender justice we'd be absolutely remiss not to follow their lead.<br /><br />Here's a copy of my letter to President Asif Ali Zardari. It took me 10 minutes to write it. I think we can all spare 10 minutes for this, don't you? You can fax your letters to: President Asif Ali Zardari, President’s Avenue, Islamabad, Pakistan, fax: +92-51-9203297 or Mr. Mumtaz Gillani, Federal Minister for Human Rights, fax: +92-51-9244542. For more on Miss Rafiq's story <a href="http://kristof.blogs.nytimes.com/2009/07/25/helping-assiya-and-mukhtar/?emc=eta1">check out this article in the New York Times</a>.<br /><br />Peace and blessings to all,<br />c.<br /><br />July 26, 2009<br />Re: The case of Miss Assiya Rafiq<br /><br />Dear President Asif Ali Zardari:<br /><br />I am writing you to tell you how devastated I am to hear about the case of Assiya Rafiq, a young woman who was sold to two men, subjected to a year of rape and beating, and after being handed over to the police was brutally raped by four police officers over a period of two weeks. It is horrible enough that she had to endure a year of such brutality but to be doubly victimized by those who are supposed to protect her is simply unconscionable.<br /><br />Unlike many women who simply hide the shame of being raped, Miss Rafiq has taken a stand and is refusing to remain silent. She is demanding justice for the violence that was done against her and that the criminals and police who raped her be prosecuted and brought to justice. As a result she and her family are facing threats from the police, the criminals who raped and abused her, her brothers and sisters have had to leave school, and her family has lost its livelihood. Women will never be able to fight against rape and sexual violence in their communities while the state allows this kind of intimidation to continue. I urge you President Zardari to come out in support of Miss Rafiq and to assist in the prosecution of these perpetrators. Sexual violence against women is a global epidemic and we must all unite to stop it. However, nothing will ever change if governments do not come out and explicitly condemn these acts of violence against women. I believe that Pakistan can play a crucial role in changing global attitudes about sexual violence against women and taking a stand against this brutal act.<br /><br />Women should not be shamed for violence that is done against them. Rape is not about lust or desire, it is about power and subordinating women. The government of Pakistan simply cannot allow women to continue to face ongoing violence when they refuse to be silent about rape and sexual abuse.<br /><br />I urge you to take a clear stand on this matter and support not only Assiya Rafiq but all of the women and girls who have been subjected to this brutality. The two police officers whom betrayed her trust and raped her again and again instead of helping must be brought to justice. Don't turn your back on the women of Pakistan like so many others have. I know that you will follow your heart and do what is right to ensure that all of Pakistan's citizens enjoy a life free of violence and despair.<br /><br />Respectfully,<br /><br />Courtney Morris<br />Bluefields, NicaraguaCourtney Desiree Morrishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04877422685485639690noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20271824.post-65388024966923271952009-03-17T18:40:00.010-05:002009-03-17T18:47:10.174-05:00"Inquisitive"<p class="mobile-photo"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjPx7MuGPoEgP3eTEhyphenhyphenQYtol31HNMSrDu5XS8FYxXtUTAa9hS-Rmwn4CM_jqb99Zy3q2AA-vkwMBeXOQiWeqiYyZ7xqRdlRwc5oRxE09L7JVg-kxOLR6CFx-ipG0KkozFHz6VGA/s1600-h/IMG_0775_2_2-771852.jpg"><img src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjPx7MuGPoEgP3eTEhyphenhyphenQYtol31HNMSrDu5XS8FYxXtUTAa9hS-Rmwn4CM_jqb99Zy3q2AA-vkwMBeXOQiWeqiYyZ7xqRdlRwc5oRxE09L7JVg-kxOLR6CFx-ipG0KkozFHz6VGA/s320/IMG_0775_2_2-771852.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5314305934621886738" border="0" /></a></p>"Inquisitive" by Courtney Desiree Morris, Bluefields, Nicaragua, Mar. 2009Courtney Desiree Morrishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04877422685485639690noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20271824.post-7060736641232009312009-03-17T18:40:00.008-05:002009-03-17T18:46:22.705-05:00"View from the Veranda"<p class="mobile-photo"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEinnn5B92IkPaDSIuM8fWi4etEdYnTrbg3mPAZ_Ke4ZrS-Ym7UAKtxt4P81RL5MmeR8uEJH7NBHI0BCX73hmbuVJYdtv0Uqn4wwhgvONiajXNCnVYW3HQFRd_nB03XbdlHCY2eC/s1600-h/IMG_0401_2_2-747252.jpg"><img src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEinnn5B92IkPaDSIuM8fWi4etEdYnTrbg3mPAZ_Ke4ZrS-Ym7UAKtxt4P81RL5MmeR8uEJH7NBHI0BCX73hmbuVJYdtv0Uqn4wwhgvONiajXNCnVYW3HQFRd_nB03XbdlHCY2eC/s320/IMG_0401_2_2-747252.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5314305830221292418" border="0" /></a></p>"View fro the Veranda" by Courtney Desiree Morris, Bluefields, Nicaragua, Mar. 2009.Courtney Desiree Morrishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04877422685485639690noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20271824.post-29655450079129721602009-03-17T18:40:00.006-05:002009-03-17T18:43:18.955-05:00Essential<p class="mobile-photo"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjCItjIJDdI7lYxivpPifaCSZ9OtYDpBwp1PDWCjpJCkr1oV-atmajeADGVbUmsGzrLU4he0IowCxZypeRxDrXcAzJn3SeLq-6B6gCzeqtZt1R1A_C2tIvM2iGLWkX6erZTtaqD/s1600-h/IMG_0466_2_2-721377.jpg"><img src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjCItjIJDdI7lYxivpPifaCSZ9OtYDpBwp1PDWCjpJCkr1oV-atmajeADGVbUmsGzrLU4he0IowCxZypeRxDrXcAzJn3SeLq-6B6gCzeqtZt1R1A_C2tIvM2iGLWkX6erZTtaqD/s320/IMG_0466_2_2-721377.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5314305722567814290" border="0" /></a></p>"Essential" by Courtney Desiree Morris, Bluefields, Nicaragua Mar. 2009Courtney Desiree Morrishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04877422685485639690noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20271824.post-81707226278998541732009-03-03T16:20:00.006-06:002009-03-03T17:28:08.275-06:00Abandonada<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjlPa8opMfXW6JYsCYd2Ii9pOz66nEQKWZgx4LxfrKjcAM_SjQv736VXVJtIyLz0DxJ8qiPl_VVBVnAF4PxQkTvRkUs1sFEDRh8z4_0X3fDtsvuGttIV-weFgDHwckj2WMr1QuY/s1600-h/IMG_0387_2.JPG"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 400px; height: 300px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjlPa8opMfXW6JYsCYd2Ii9pOz66nEQKWZgx4LxfrKjcAM_SjQv736VXVJtIyLz0DxJ8qiPl_VVBVnAF4PxQkTvRkUs1sFEDRh8z4_0X3fDtsvuGttIV-weFgDHwckj2WMr1QuY/s400/IMG_0387_2.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5309092650738383474" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">"Abandonada" by Courtney Desiree Morris, Bluefields, Nicaragua, Feb. 2009.</span>Courtney Desiree Morrishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04877422685485639690noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20271824.post-19223613541566558462009-02-08T18:59:00.005-06:002009-02-08T19:36:28.553-06:00The Sweet Music of Justice and Forgiveness<a style="font-family: georgia;" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiWM5w2FF6apLgS6oXiHx47dAlJQRb1ZvD3mfp29pVloeAZR_rqs_abRmG3CKjLB_net5bMFscAq36-Ty4vL4WxIjq3h-Y-wrjCSWe8AxLAgEKkSheVJmo0RYrt8tqwhZw2a9ZZ/s1600-h/IMG_0149.JPG"><img style="margin: 0pt 0pt 10px 10px; float: right; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 179px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiWM5w2FF6apLgS6oXiHx47dAlJQRb1ZvD3mfp29pVloeAZR_rqs_abRmG3CKjLB_net5bMFscAq36-Ty4vL4WxIjq3h-Y-wrjCSWe8AxLAgEKkSheVJmo0RYrt8tqwhZw2a9ZZ/s320/IMG_0149.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5300598782566415602" border="0" /></a><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">In 1957, Barbara Conrad was an undergraduate music student at the University of Texas at Austin. One of a small number of Black undergrads on campus at the time, she was determined to build a career as an opera singer despite the very real barriers that Jim Crow segregation and racism presented to her dream. In spite of the odds, the talented mezzo-soprano was cast that year to play the lead female role in the opera "Dido and Aeneas" opposite a white male lead. It should have been a cause for celebration. But this young opera singer became the center of a racial controversy that made its way all the up to the highest levels of state government, the Texas Legislature.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">Shortly after the news spread that she had received the role all hell broke loose. According to the <span style="font-style: italic;">Austin American Statesman</span>, Conrad began to receive threatening phone calls in her dormitory and one evening she was assaulted by two young white men as she made her way home.</span> Still, she refused to give up the role. Black East Austinites began to get involved offering to provide transportation for Conrad and other Black students traveling to and from campus and keeping a watch over the women's dormitory on E. 12th Street. But, as the <span style="font-style: italic;">Statesman</span> notes:<br /><p style="font-style: italic; font-family: georgia;">"That didn't stop the threats. Anonymous calls came into the office of UT fine arts Dean William Doty. And by April 1957, opposition to Conrad's pending May performance mounted in the Texas Legislature. Rep. Joe Chapman of Sulphur Springs, a leader of the House segregation bloc, warned UT officials that it would be a very bad move for the university's public relations. Though Chapman would deny that he threatened then-UT President Logan Wilson, the university's appropriations were about to come up before the Legislature.</p><span style="font-style: italic;">Another state lawmaker was less evasive. Rep. Jerry Sadler, also a segregationist, denounced the university and told the Houston Post in an article about Conrad, "I mentioned appropriations and as a matter of fact voted against those for the university because they have Negro undergraduates."<br /><br /></span>Shortly thereafter, Conrad was removed from the role. The decision crushed Conrad, who, rather than choosing to leave the University (despite a rather tempting offer by Harry Belafonte, who offered to pay her tuition and fees at the school of her choosing if she wanted to leave Texas) she decided to stay and support the struggle to fully integrate the University. It seemed at the time that the segregationists had won.<br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">But in 2009, Ms. Conrad is getting the last laugh. This past week, the Texas Legislature, the same body that had called for her removal more than fifty years ago, paid homage to the opera diva and passed a resolution in her honor.</span> She also returned to the University of Texas at Austin to celebrate the re-opening of Bass Concert Hall, where she shared the stage with opera greats Frederica Von Stade and Samuel Ramey.<br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">In a recent interview with the <span style="font-style: italic;">Austin American Statesman</span>, Ms. Conrad spoke about her journey since 1957 and her genuine desire that this country begin to do the meaningful work of mending the damage that racial violence (of all kinds) has done to people. She stated,</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia; font-style: italic;">"I've learned that if you have a gift, you have to share it. And this is a time when we need a lot of inspiration and healing. When you go through (what I did), you really want to transform it into something more positive. It's not just about my journey, it's a very big journey, for people of all races."</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">I had the pleasure of seeing Ms. Conrad finally perform and receive the recognition that she deserved at the University of Texas at Austin. If things have changed to such a degree at the University that we have the luxury of forgetting what Black people experienced and lived through in order to attend the state's flagship university, Ms. Conrad's story should remind us that we should never forget. Afterward I was able to meet her in person and she is <span style="font-style: italic;">divine</span>. Personally, I was so struck by this women's dignity and grace in the face of so much bigotry and violence. In spite of living in a world that told her she would never be an opera singer for no other reason than being a Black woman, she defied them all and dared to create beauty when confronted with the ugliness of racial discrimination. She may not have been taking it to the streets but in her own way she fought to create a place in this world for Black women committed to the work of creating beauty. I think that's something to be proud of.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">Thank you Ms. Conrad, you're amazing.</span>Courtney Desiree Morrishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04877422685485639690noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20271824.post-60452957097785292652009-01-19T13:09:00.002-06:002009-01-19T13:22:36.363-06:00Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr.: Beyond Vietname -- A Time to Break Silence<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjiTD63iZM4VoRz3EfiUHjolIkwsiRFI5bINvwdcN_2NmZEZwmut54klhDK8iVW-aGsaSv1Z-VHPpGijStVaVgB8rROngTAKs_jEgVbR4MKH4hEE5WlLd51Z1m1LjRPE3OsLZ90/s1600-h/mlkbeyondvietnam.jpg"><img style="margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; float: left; cursor: pointer; width: 347px; height: 300px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjiTD63iZM4VoRz3EfiUHjolIkwsiRFI5bINvwdcN_2NmZEZwmut54klhDK8iVW-aGsaSv1Z-VHPpGijStVaVgB8rROngTAKs_jEgVbR4MKH4hEE5WlLd51Z1m1LjRPE3OsLZ90/s400/mlkbeyondvietnam.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5293087291550382146" border="0" /></a><br /><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="font-family:georgia;">Given everything that is happening in the Middle East right now (and all of the hidden wars that the American media never reports on) this speech felt particularly relevant and prescient today. I encourage all of you to honor the memory of Dr. King by continuing to engage his radical legacy and rejecting the sanitized, distorted, and flattened version that has become common sense in American political culture. Dr. King rejected imperialism and U.S. wars of aggression; he rejected a culture of capitalism built on the values of gluttonous consumption and total disregard for human life; he rejected a corporate culture that could treat the needs of human beings as mere "</span>externalities<span style="font-family:georgia;">" in the drive for ever greater profits. He believed in the fundamental dignity of all people and their right to the basic necessities of life -- he believed in a radical vision of racial and economic justice that affirmed human life. That's what I have taken from Dr. King and in these </span>troubled<span style="font-family:georgia;"> times I urge all of us to reflect on how to make these radical ideals a fundamental part of our political and daily practice. Peace.</span> <span style="font-family:georgia;">-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------</span> <span style="font-family:georgia;">Delivered April 4, 1967 at Riverside Church in New York City</span> </span><span style="font-family: georgia;font-family:Verdana;font-size:100%;" ><br />Mr. Chairman, ladies and gentlemen:</span><p style="font-family: georgia;" align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">I need not pause to say how very delighted I am to be here tonight, and how very delighted I am to see you expressing your concern about the issues that will be discussed tonight by turning out in such large numbers. I also want to say that I consider it a great honor to share this program with Dr. Bennett, Dr. Commager, and Rabbi Heschel, and some of the distinguished leaders and personalities of our nation. And of course it’s always good to come back to Riverside Church. Over the last eight years, I have had the privilege of preaching here almost every year in that period, and it is always a rich and rewarding experience to come to this great church and this great pulpit.</span></p><p style="font-family: georgia;" align="left"> <span style="font-size:100%;">I come to this magnificent house of worship tonight because my conscience leaves me no other choice. I join you in this meeting because I am in deepest agreement with the aims and work of the organization which has brought us together: Clergy and Laymen Concerned about Vietnam. The recent statements of your executive committee are the sentiments of my own heart, and I found myself in full accord when I read its opening lines: "A time comes when silence is betrayal." And that time has come for us in relation to Vietnam. </span></p><p style="font-family: georgia;" align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">The truth of these words is beyond doubt, but the mission to which they call us is a most difficult one. Even when pressed by the demands of inner truth, men do not easily assume the task of opposing their government's policy, especially in time of war. Nor does the human spirit move without great difficulty against all the apathy of conformist thought within one's own bosom and in the surrounding world. Moreover, when the issues at hand seem as perplexed as they often do in the case of this dreadful conflict, we are always on the verge of being mesmerized by uncertainty; but we must move on.</span></p><p style="font-family: georgia;" align="left"> <span style="font-size:100%;">And some of us who have already begun to break the silence of the night have found that the calling to speak is often a vocation of agony, but we must speak. We must speak with all the humility that is appropriate to our limited vision, but we must speak. And we must rejoice as well, for surely this is the first time in our nation's history that a significant number of its religious leaders have chosen to move beyond the prophesying of smooth patriotism to the high grounds of a firm dissent based upon the mandates of conscience and the reading of history. Perhaps a new spirit is rising among us. If it is, let us trace its movements and pray that our own inner being may be sensitive to its guidance, for we are deeply in need of a new way beyond the darkness that seems so close around us.</span></p><p style="font-family: georgia;" align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">Over the past two years, as I have moved to break the betrayal of my own silences and to speak from the burnings of my own heart, as I have called for radical departures from the destruction of Vietnam, many persons have questioned me about the wisdom of my path. At the heart of their concerns this query has often loomed large and loud: "Why are you speaking about the war, Dr. King?" "Why are you joining the voices of dissent?" "Peace and civil rights don't mix," they say. "Aren't you hurting the cause of your people," they ask? And when I hear them, though I often understand the source of their concern, I am nevertheless greatly saddened, for such questions mean that the inquirers have not really known me, my commitment or my calling. Indeed, their questions suggest that they do not know the world in which they live.</span></p><p style="font-family: georgia;" align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">In the light of such tragic misunderstanding, I deem it of signal importance to try to state clearly, and I trust concisely, why I believe that the path from Dexter Avenue Baptist Church -- the church in Montgomery, Alabama, where I began my pastorate -- leads clearly to this sanctuary tonight.</span></p><p style="font-family: georgia;" align="left"> <span style="font-size:100%;">I come to this platform tonight to make a passionate plea to my beloved nation. This speech is not addressed to Hanoi or to the National Liberation Front. It is not addressed to China or to Russia. Nor is it an attempt to overlook the ambiguity of the total situation and the need for a collective solution to the tragedy of Vietnam. Neither is it an attempt to make North Vietnam or the National Liberation Front paragons of virtue, nor to overlook the role they must play in the successful resolution of the problem. While they both may have justifiable reasons to be suspicious of the good faith of the United States, life and history give eloquent testimony to the fact that conflicts are never resolved without trustful give and take on both sides.</span></p><p style="font-family: georgia;" align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">Tonight, however, I wish not to speak with Hanoi and the National Liberation Front, but rather to my fellow Americans.</span></p><p style="font-family: georgia;" align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">Since I am a preacher by calling, I suppose it is not surprising that I have seven major reasons for bringing Vietnam into the field of my moral vision. There is at the outset a very obvious and almost facile connection between the war in Vietnam and the struggle I, and others, have been waging in America. A few years ago there was a shining moment in that struggle. It seemed as if there was a real promise of hope for the poor -- both black and white -- through the poverty program. There were experiments, hopes, new beginnings. Then came the buildup in Vietnam, and I watched this program broken and eviscerated, as if it were some idle political plaything of a society gone mad on war, and I knew that America would never invest the necessary funds or energies in rehabilitation of its poor so long as adventures like Vietnam continued to draw men and skills and money like some demonic destructive suction tube. So, I was increasingly compelled to see the war as an enemy of the poor and to attack it as such.</span></p><p style="font-family: georgia;" align="left"> <span style="font-size:100%;">Perhaps the more tragic recognition of reality took place when it became clear to me that the war was doing far more than devastating the hopes of the poor at home. It was sending their sons and their brothers and their husbands to fight and to die in extraordinarily high proportions relative to the rest of the population. We were taking the black young men who had been crippled by our society and sending them eight thousand miles away to guarantee liberties in Southeast Asia which they had not found in southwest Georgia and East Harlem. And so we have been repeatedly faced with the cruel irony of watching Negro and white boys on TV screens as they kill and die together for a nation that has been unable to seat them together in the same schools. And so we watch them in brutal solidarity burning the huts of a poor village, but we realize that they would hardly live on the same block in Chicago. I could not be silent in the face of such cruel manipulation of the poor.</span></p><p style="font-family: georgia;" align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">My third reason moves to an even deeper level of awareness, for it grows out of my experience in the ghettoes of the North over the last three years -- especially the last three summers. As I have walked among the desperate, rejected, and angry young men, I have told them that Molotov cocktails and rifles would not solve their problems. I have tried to offer them my deepest compassion while maintaining my conviction that social change comes most meaningfully through nonviolent action. But they ask -- and rightly so -- what about Vietnam? They ask if our own nation wasn't using massive doses of violence to solve its problems, to bring about the changes it wanted. Their questions hit home, and I knew that I could never again raise my voice against the violence of the oppressed in the ghettos without having first spoken clearly to the greatest purveyor of violence in the world today -- my own government. For the sake of those boys, for the sake of this government, for the sake of the hundreds of thousands trembling under our violence, I cannot be silent. </span></p><p style="font-family: georgia;" align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">For those who ask the question, "Aren't you a civil rights leader?" and thereby mean to exclude me from the movement for peace, I have this further answer. In 1957 when a group of us formed the Southern Christian Leadership Conference, we chose as our motto: "To save the soul of America." We were convinced that we could not limit our vision to certain rights for black people, but instead affirmed the conviction that America would never be free or saved from itself until the descendants of its slaves were loosed completely from the shackles they still wear. In a way we were agreeing with Langston Hughes, that black bard of Harlem, who had written earlier:</span></p> <blockquote style="font-family: georgia;"><p align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">O, yes,<br /> I say it plain,<br /> America never was America to me,<br /> And yet I swear this oath --<br /> America will be!</span></p> </blockquote> <p style="font-family: georgia;" align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">Now, it should be incandescently clear that no one who has any concern for the integrity and life of America today can ignore the present war. If America's soul becomes totally poisoned, part of the autopsy must read: Vietnam. It can never be saved so long as it destroys the deepest hopes of men the world over. So it is that those of us who are yet determined that America will be are led down the path of protest and dissent, working for the health of our land.</span></p><p style="font-family: georgia;" align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">As if the weight of such a commitment to the life and health of America were not enough, another burden of responsibility was placed upon me in 1954<sup><span style="color:#ff0000;">1</span></sup></span><span style="font-size:100%;">; and I cannot forget that the Nobel Prize for Peace was also a commission -- a commission to work harder than I had ever worked before for "the brotherhood of man." This is a calling that takes me beyond national allegiances, but even if it were not present I would yet have to live with the meaning of my commitment to the ministry of Jesus Christ. To me the relationship of this ministry to the making of peace is so obvious that I sometimes marvel at those who ask me why I'm speaking against the war. Could it be that they do not know that the good news was meant for all men -- for Communist and capitalist, for their children and ours, for black and for white, for revolutionary and conservative? Have they forgotten that my ministry is in obedience to the One who loved his enemies so fully that he died for them? What then can I say to the Vietcong or to Castro or to Mao as a faithful minister of this One? Can I threaten them with death or must I not share with them my life?</span></p><p style="font-family: georgia;" align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">And finally, as I try to explain for you and for myself the road that leads from Montgomery to this place I would have offered all that was most valid if I simply said that I must be true to my conviction that I share with all men the calling to be a son of the living God. Beyond the calling of race or nation or creed is this vocation of sonship and brotherhood, and because I believe that the Father is deeply concerned especially for his suffering and helpless and outcast children, I come tonight to speak for them. </span></p><p style="font-family: georgia;" align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">This I believe to be the privilege and the burden of all of us who deem ourselves bound by allegiances and loyalties which are broader and deeper than nationalism and which go beyond our nation's self-defined goals and positions. We are called to speak for the weak, for the voiceless, for the victims of our nation and for those it calls "enemy," for no document from human hands can make these humans any less our brothers. </span></p><p style="font-family: georgia;" align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">And as I ponder the madness of Vietnam and search within myself for ways to understand and respond in compassion, my mind goes constantly to the people of that peninsula. I speak now not of the soldiers of each side, not of the ideologies of the Liberation Front, not of the junta in Saigon, but simply of the people who have been living under the curse of war for almost three continuous decades now. I think of them, too, because it is clear to me that there will be no meaningful solution there until some attempt is made to know them and hear their broken cries.<br /><br />They must see Americans as strange liberators. The Vietnamese people proclaimed their own independence in 1954 -- in 1945 rather -- after a combined French and Japanese occupation and before the communist revolution in China. They were led by Ho Chi Minh. Even though they quoted the American Declaration of Independence in their own document of freedom, we refused to recognize them. Instead, we decided to support France in its reconquest of her former colony. Our government felt then that the Vietnamese people were not ready for independence, and we again fell victim to the deadly Western arrogance that has poisoned the international atmosphere for so long. With that tragic decision we rejected a revolutionary government seeking self-determination and a government that had been established not by China -- for whom the Vietnamese have no great love -- but by clearly indigenous forces that included some communists. For the peasants this new government meant real land reform, one of the most important needs in their lives.</span></p> <span style="font-family: georgia;font-family:Verdana;font-size:100%;" > </span><p style="font-family: georgia;" align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">For nine years following 1945 we denied the people of Vietnam the right of independence. For nine years we vigorously supported the French in their abortive effort to recolonize Vietnam. Before the end of the war we were meeting eighty percent of the French war costs. Even before the French were defeated at Dien Bien Phu, they began to despair of their reckless action, but we did not. We encouraged them with our huge financial and military supplies to continue the war even after they had lost the will. Soon we would be paying almost the full costs of this tragic attempt at recolonization.</span></p><p style="font-family: georgia;" align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">After the French were defeated, it looked as if independence and land reform would come again through the Geneva Agreement. But instead there came the United States, determined that Ho should not unify the temporarily divided nation, and the peasants watched again as we supported one of the most vicious modern dictators, our chosen man, Premier Diem. The peasants watched and cringed as Diem ruthlessly rooted out all opposition, supported their extortionist landlords, and refused even to discuss reunification with the North. The peasants watched as all this was presided over by United States' influence and then by increasing numbers of United States troops who came to help quell the insurgency that Diem's methods had aroused. When Diem was overthrown they may have been happy, but the long line of military dictators seemed to offer no real change, especially in terms of their need for land and peace.</span></p> <span style="font-family: georgia;font-family:Verdana;font-size:100%;" > </span><p style="font-family: georgia;" align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">The only change came from America, as we increased our troop commitments in support of governments which were singularly corrupt, inept, and without popular support. All the while the people read our leaflets and received the regular promises of peace and democracy and land reform. Now they languish under our bombs and consider us, not their fellow Vietnamese, the real enemy. They move sadly and apathetically as we herd them off the land of their fathers into concentration camps where minimal social needs are rarely met. They know they must move on or be destroyed by our bombs.</span></p> <span style="font-family: georgia;font-family:Verdana;font-size:100%;" > </span><p style="font-family: georgia;" align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">So they go, primarily women and children and the aged. They watch as we poison their water, as we kill a million acres of their crops. They must weep as the bulldozers roar through their areas preparing to destroy the precious trees. They wander into the hospitals with at least twenty casualties from American firepower for one Vietcong-inflicted injury. So far we may have killed a million of them, mostly children. They wander into the towns and see thousands of the children, homeless, without clothes, running in packs on the streets like animals. They see the children degraded by our soldiers as they beg for food. They see the children selling their sisters to our soldiers, soliciting for their mothers.<br /><br /> What do the peasants think as we ally ourselves with the landlords and as we refuse to put any action into our many words concerning land reform? What do they think as we test out our latest weapons on them, just as the Germans tested out new medicine and new tortures in the concentration camps of Europe? Where are the roots of the independent Vietnam we claim to be building? Is it among these voiceless ones?</span></p> <span style="font-family: georgia;font-family:Verdana;font-size:100%;" > </span><p style="font-family: georgia;" align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">We have destroyed their two most cherished institutions: the family and the village. We have destroyed their land and their crops. We have cooperated in the crushing of -- in the crushing of the nation's only noncommunist revolutionary political force, the unified Buddhist Church. We have supported the enemies of the peasants of Saigon. We have corrupted their women and children and killed their men.</span></p> <span style="font-family: georgia;font-family:Verdana;font-size:100%;" > </span><p style="font-family: georgia;" align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">Now there is little left to build on, save bitterness. Soon the only solid physical foundations remaining will be found at our military bases and in the concrete of the concentration camps we call "fortified hamlets." The peasants may well wonder if we plan to build our new Vietnam on such grounds as these. Could we blame them for such thoughts? We must speak for them and raise the questions they cannot raise. These, too, are our brothers.</span></p> <span style="font-family: georgia;font-family:Verdana;font-size:100%;" > </span><p style="font-family: georgia;" align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">Perhaps a more difficult but no less necessary task is to speak for those who have been designated as our enemies. What of the National Liberation Front, that strangely anonymous group we call "VC" or "communists"? What must they think of the United States of America when they realize that we permitted the repression and cruelty of Diem, which helped to bring them into being as a resistance group in the South? What do they think of our condoning the violence which led to their own taking up of arms? How can they believe in our integrity when now we speak of "aggression from the North" as if there were nothing more essential to the war? How can they trust us when now we charge them with violence after the murderous reign of Diem and charge them with violence while we pour every new weapon of death into their land? Surely we must understand their feelings, even if we do not condone their actions. Surely we must see that the men we supported pressed them to their violence. Surely we must see that our own computerized plans of destruction simply dwarf their greatest acts.</span></p> <span style="font-family: georgia;font-family:Verdana;font-size:100%;" > </span><p style="font-family: georgia;" align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">How do they judge us when our officials know that their membership is less than twenty-five percent communist, and yet insist on giving them the blanket name? What must they be thinking when they know that we are aware of their control of major sections of Vietnam, and yet we appear ready to allow national elections in which this highly organized political parallel government will not have a part? They ask how we can speak of free elections when the Saigon press is censored and controlled by the military junta. And they are surely right to wonder what kind of new government we plan to help form without them, the only party in real touch with the peasants. They question our political goals and they deny the reality of a peace settlement from which they will be excluded. Their questions are frighteningly relevant. Is our nation planning to build on political myth again, and then shore it up upon the power of new violence?</span></p> <span style="font-family: georgia;font-family:Verdana;font-size:100%;" > </span><p style="font-family: georgia;" align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">Here is the true meaning and value of compassion and nonviolence, when it helps us to see the enemy's point of view, to hear his questions, to know his assessment of ourselves. For from his view we may indeed see the basic weaknesses of our own condition, and if we are mature, we may learn and grow and profit from the wisdom of the brothers who are called the opposition.</span></p> <span style="font-family: georgia;font-family:Verdana;font-size:100%;" > </span><p style="font-family: georgia;" align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">So, too, with Hanoi. In the North, where our bombs now pummel the land, and our mines endanger the waterways, we are met by a deep but understandable mistrust. To speak for them is to explain this lack of confidence in Western words, and especially their distrust of American intentions now. In Hanoi are the men who led the nation to independence against the Japanese and the French, the men who sought membership in the French Commonwealth and were betrayed by the weakness of Paris and the willfulness of the colonial armies. It was they who led a second struggle against French domination at tremendous costs, and then were persuaded to give up the land they controlled between the thirteenth and seventeenth parallel as a temporary measure at Geneva. After 1954 they watched us conspire with Diem to prevent elections which could have surely brought Ho Chi Minh to power over a united Vietnam, and they realized they had been betrayed again. When we ask why they do not leap to negotiate, these things must be remembered.</span></p> <span style="font-family: georgia;font-family:Verdana;font-size:100%;" > </span><p style="font-family: georgia;" align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">Also, it must be clear that the leaders of Hanoi considered the presence of American troops in support of the Diem regime to have been the initial military breach of the Geneva Agreement concerning foreign troops. They remind us that they did not begin to send troops in large numbers and even supplies into the South until American forces had moved into the tens of thousands.</span></p> <span style="font-family: georgia;font-family:Verdana;font-size:100%;" > </span><p style="font-family: georgia;" align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">Hanoi remembers how our leaders refused to tell us the truth about the earlier North Vietnamese overtures for peace, how the president claimed that none existed when they had clearly been made. Ho Chi Minh has watched as America has spoken of peace and built up its forces, and now he has surely heard the increasing international rumors of American plans for an invasion of the North. He knows the bombing and shelling and mining we are doing are part of traditional pre-invasion strategy. Perhaps only his sense of humor and of irony can save him when he hears the most powerful nation of the world speaking of aggression as it drops thousands of bombs on a poor, weak nation more than eight hundred -- rather, eight thousand miles away from its shores.</span></p> <span style="font-family: georgia;font-family:Verdana;font-size:100%;" > </span><p style="font-family: georgia;" align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">At this point I should make it clear that while I have tried in these last few minutes to give a voice to the voiceless in Vietnam and to understand the arguments of those who are called "enemy," I am as deeply concerned about our own troops there as anything else. For it occurs to me that what we are submitting them to in Vietnam is not simply the brutalizing process that goes on in any war where armies face each other and seek to destroy. We are adding cynicism to the process of death, for they must know after a short period there that none of the things we claim to be fighting for are really involved. Before long they must know that their government has sent them into a struggle among Vietnamese, and the more sophisticated surely realize that we are on the side of the wealthy, and the secure, while we create a hell for the poor.</span></p> <span style="font-family: georgia;font-family:Verdana;font-size:100%;" > </span><p style="font-family: georgia;" align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">Somehow this madness must cease. We must stop now. I speak as a child of God and brother to the suffering poor of Vietnam. I speak for those whose land is being laid waste, whose homes are being destroyed, whose culture is being subverted. I speak for the poor of America who are paying the double price of smashed hopes at home, and death and corruption in Vietnam. I speak as a citizen of the world, for the world as it stands aghast at the path we have taken. I speak as one who loves America, to the leaders of our own nation: The great initiative in this war is ours; the initiative to stop it must be ours.</span></p> <span style="font-family: georgia;font-family:Verdana;font-size:100%;" > </span><p style="font-family: georgia;" align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">This is the message of the great Buddhist leaders of Vietnam. Recently one of them wrote these words, and I quote:</span></p> <span style="font-family: georgia;font-family:Verdana;font-size:100%;" > </span><blockquote style="font-family: georgia;"> <span style="font-size:100%;"> </span><p align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">Each day the war goes on the hatred increases in the heart of the Vietnamese and in the hearts of those of humanitarian instinct. The Americans are forcing even their friends into becoming their enemies. It is curious that the Americans, who calculate so carefully on the possibilities of military victory, do not realize that in the process they are incurring deep psychological and political defeat. The image of America will never again be the image of revolution, freedom, and democracy, but the image of violence and militarism (unquote).</span></p> <span style="font-size:100%;"> </span></blockquote> <span style="font-family: georgia;font-family:Verdana;font-size:100%;" > </span><p style="font-family: georgia;" align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">If we continue, there will be no doubt in my mind and in the mind of the world that we have no honorable intentions in Vietnam. If we do not stop our war against the people of Vietnam immediately, the world will be left with no other alternative than to see this as some horrible, clumsy, and deadly game we have decided to play. The world now demands a maturity of America that we may not be able to achieve. It demands that we admit that we have been wrong from the beginning of our adventure in Vietnam, that we have been detrimental to the life of the Vietnamese people. The situation is one in which we must be ready to turn sharply from our present ways. In order to atone for our sins and errors in Vietnam, we should take the initiative in bringing a halt to this tragic war.</span></p> <span style="font-family: georgia;font-family:Verdana;font-size:100%;" > </span><p style="font-family: georgia;" align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">I would like to suggest five concrete things that our government should do immediately to begin the long and difficult process of extricating ourselves from this nightmarish conflict:</span></p><p style="font-family: georgia;" align="left"> <span style="font-size:100%;">Number one: End all bombing in North and South Vietnam.<br /><br /> Number two: Declare a unilateral cease-fire in the hope that such action will create the atmosphere for negotiation.<br /><br /> Three: Take immediate steps to prevent other battlegrounds in Southeast Asia by curtailing our military buildup in Thailand and our interference in Laos.<br /><br /> Four: Realistically accept the fact that the National Liberation Front has substantial support in South Vietnam and must thereby play a role in any meaningful negotiations and any future Vietnam government.<br /><br /> Five: Set a date that we will remove all foreign troops from Vietnam in accordance with the 1954 Geneva Agreement.</span></p> <span style="font-family: georgia;font-family:Verdana;font-size:100%;" > </span><p style="font-family: georgia;" align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">Part of our ongoing -- Part of our ongoing commitment might well express itself in an offer to grant asylum to any Vietnamese who fears for his life under a new regime which included the Liberation Front. Then we must make what reparations we can for the damage we have done. We must provide the medical aid that is badly needed, making it available in this country, if necessary. Meanwhile -- Meanwhile, we in the churches and synagogues have a continuing task while we urge our government to disengage itself from a disgraceful commitment. We must continue to raise our voices and our lives if our nation persists in its perverse ways in Vietnam. We must be prepared to match actions with words by seeking out every creative method of protest possible.</span></p><p style="font-family: georgia;" align="left"> <span style="font-size:100%;">As we counsel young men concerning military service, we must clarify for them our nation's role in Vietnam and challenge them with the alternative of conscientious objection. I am pleased to say that this is a path now chosen by more than seventy students at my own alma mater, Morehouse College, and I recommend it to all who find the American course in Vietnam a dishonorable and unjust one. Moreover, I would encourage all ministers of draft age to give up their ministerial exemptions and seek status as conscientious objectors. These are the times for real choices and not false ones. We are at the moment when our lives must be placed on the line if our nation is to survive its own folly. Every man of humane convictions must decide on the protest that best suits his convictions, but we must all protest.</span></p> <span style="font-family: georgia;font-family:Verdana;font-size:100%;" > </span><p style="font-family: georgia;" align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">Now there is something seductively tempting about stopping there and sending us all off on what in some circles has become a popular crusade against the war in Vietnam. I say we must enter that struggle, but I wish to go on now to say something even more disturbing.<br /><br /> The war in Vietnam is but a symptom of a far deeper malady within the American spirit, and if we ignore this sobering reality...and if we ignore this sobering reality, we will find ourselves organizing "clergy and laymen concerned" committees for the next generation. They will be concerned about Guatemala and Peru. They will be concerned about Thailand and Cambodia. They will be concerned about Mozambique and South Africa. We will be marching for these and a dozen other names and attending rallies without end, unless there is a significant and profound change in American life and policy. </span></p> <span style="font-family: georgia;font-family:Verdana;font-size:100%;" > </span><p style="font-family: georgia;" align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">And so, such thoughts take us beyond Vietnam, but not beyond our calling as sons of the living God.</span></p> <span style="font-family: georgia;font-family:Verdana;font-size:100%;" > </span><p style="font-family: georgia;" align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">In 1957, a sensitive American official overseas said that it seemed to him that our nation was on the wrong side of a world revolution. During the past ten years, we have seen emerge a pattern of suppression which has now justified the presence of U.S. military advisors in Venezuela. This need to maintain social stability for our investments accounts for the counterrevolutionary action of American forces in Guatemala. It tells why American helicopters are being used against guerrillas in Cambodia and why American napalm and Green Beret forces have already been active against rebels in Peru.</span></p> <span style="font-family: georgia;font-family:Verdana;font-size:100%;" > </span><p style="font-family: georgia;" align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">It is with such activity in mind that the words of the late John F. Kennedy come back to haunt us. Five years ago he said, "Those who make peaceful revolution impossible will make violent revolution inevitable." Increasingly, by choice or by accident, this is the role our nation has taken, the role of those who make peaceful revolution impossible by refusing to give up the privileges and the pleasures that come from the immense profits of overseas investments. I am convinced that if we are to get on the right side of the world revolution, we as a nation must undergo a radical revolution of values. We must rapidly begin...we must rapidly begin the shift from a thing-oriented society to a person-oriented society. When machines and computers, profit motives and property rights, are considered more important than people, the giant triplets of racism, extreme materialism, and militarism are incapable of being conquered.</span></p> <span style="font-family: georgia;font-family:Verdana;font-size:100%;" > </span><p style="font-family: georgia;" align="left"> <span style="font-size:100%;"> A true revolution of values will soon cause us to question the fairness and justice of many of our past and present policies. On the one hand, we are called to play the Good Samaritan on life's roadside, but that will be only an initial act. One day we must come to see that the whole Jericho Road must be transformed so that men and women will not be constantly beaten and robbed as they make their journey on life's highway. True compassion is more than flinging a coin to a beggar. It comes to see that an edifice which produces beggars needs restructuring.</span></p><p style="font-family: georgia;" align="left"> <span style="font-size:100%;">A true revolution of values will soon look uneasily on the glaring contrast of poverty and wealth. With righteous indignation, it will look across the seas and see individual capitalists of the West investing huge sums of money in Asia, Africa, and South America, only to take the profits out with no concern for the social betterment of the countries, and say, "This is not just." It will look at our alliance with the landed gentry of South America and say, "This is not just." The Western arrogance of feeling that it has everything to teach others and nothing to learn from them is not just.</span></p> <span style="font-family: georgia;font-family:Verdana;font-size:100%;" > </span><p style="font-family: georgia;" align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">A true revolution of values will lay hand on the world order and say of war, "This way of settling differences is not just." This business of burning human beings with napalm, of filling our nation's homes with orphans and widows, of injecting poisonous drugs of hate into the veins of peoples normally humane, of sending men home from dark and bloody battlefields physically handicapped and psychologically deranged, cannot be reconciled with wisdom, justice, and love. A nation that continues year after year to spend more money on military defense than on programs of social uplift is approaching spiritual death.</span></p> <span style="font-family: georgia;font-family:Verdana;font-size:100%;" > </span><p style="font-family: georgia;" align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">America, the richest and most powerful nation in the world, can well lead the way in this revolution of values. There is nothing except a tragic death wish to prevent us from reordering our priorities so that the pursuit of peace will take precedence over the pursuit of war. There is nothing to keep us from molding a recalcitrant status quo with bruised hands until we have fashioned it into a brotherhood.</span></p> <span style="font-family: georgia;font-family:Verdana;font-size:100%;" > </span><p style="font-family: georgia;" align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">This kind of positive revolution of values is our best defense against communism. War is not the answer. Communism will never be defeated by the use of atomic bombs or nuclear weapons. Let us not join those who shout war and, through their misguided passions, urge the United States to relinquish its participation in the United Nations. These are days which demand wise restraint and calm reasonableness. We must not engage in a negative anticommunism, but rather in a positive thrust for democracy, realizing that our greatest defense against communism is to take offensive action in behalf of justice. We must with positive action seek to remove those conditions of poverty, insecurity, and injustice, which are the fertile soil in which the seed of communism grows and develops.</span></p> <span style="font-family: georgia;font-family:Verdana;font-size:100%;" > </span><p style="font-family: georgia;" align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">These are revolutionary times. All over the globe men are revolting against old systems of exploitation and oppression, and out of the wounds of a frail world, new systems of justice and equality are being born. The shirtless and barefoot people of the land are rising up as never before. The people who sat in darkness have seen a great light. We in the West must support these revolutions.</span></p> <span style="font-family: georgia;font-family:Verdana;font-size:100%;" > </span><p style="font-family: georgia;" align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">It is a sad fact that because of comfort, complacency, a morbid fear of communism, and our proneness to adjust to injustice, the Western nations that initiated so much of the revolutionary spirit of the modern world have now become the arch antirevolutionaries. This has driven many to feel that only Marxism has a revolutionary spirit. Therefore, communism is a judgment against our failure to make democracy real and follow through on the revolutions that we initiated. Our only hope today lies in our ability to recapture the revolutionary spirit and go out into a sometimes hostile world declaring eternal hostility to poverty, racism, and militarism. With this powerful commitment we shall boldly challenge the status quo and unjust mores, and thereby speed the day when "every valley shall be exalted, and every mountain and hill shall be made low, and the crooked shall be made straight, and the rough places plain."</span></p> <span style="font-family: georgia;font-family:Verdana;font-size:100%;" > </span><p style="font-family: georgia;" align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">A genuine revolution of values means in the final analysis that our loyalties must become ecumenical rather than sectional. Every nation must now develop an overriding loyalty to mankind as a whole in order to preserve the best in their individual societies.</span></p> <span style="font-family: georgia;font-family:Verdana;font-size:100%;" > </span><p style="font-family: georgia;" align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">This call for a worldwide fellowship that lifts neighborly concern beyond one's tribe, race, class, and nation is in reality a call for an all-embracing and unconditional love for all mankind. This oft misunderstood, this oft misinterpreted concept, so readily dismissed by the Nietzsches of the world as a weak and cowardly force, has now become an absolute necessity for the survival of man. When I speak of love I am not speaking of some sentimental and weak response. I am not speaking of that force which is just emotional bosh. I am speaking of that force which all of the great religions have seen as the supreme unifying principle of life. Love is somehow the key that unlocks the door which leads to ultimate reality. This Hindu-Muslim-Christian-Jewish-Buddhist belief about ultimate reality is beautifully summed up in the first epistle of Saint John: "Let us love one another, for love is God. And every one that loveth is born of God and knoweth God. He that loveth not knoweth not God, for God is love." "If we love one another, God dwelleth in us and his love is perfected in us." Let us hope that this spirit will become the order of the day.</span></p> <span style="font-family: georgia;font-family:Verdana;font-size:100%;" > </span><p style="font-family: georgia;" align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">We can no longer afford to worship the god of hate or bow before the altar of retaliation. The oceans of history are made turbulent by the ever-rising tides of hate. And history is cluttered with the wreckage of nations and individuals that pursued this self-defeating path of hate. As Arnold Toynbee says: "Love is the ultimate force that makes for the saving choice of life and good against the damning choice of death and evil. Therefore the first hope in our inventory must be the hope that love is going to have the last word" (unquote).</span></p> <span style="font-family: georgia;font-family:Verdana;font-size:100%;" > </span><p style="font-family: georgia;" align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">We are now faced with the fact, my friends, that tomorrow is today. We are confronted with the fierce urgency of now. In this unfolding conundrum of life and history, there is such a thing as being too late. Procrastination is still the thief of time. Life often leaves us standing bare, naked, and dejected with a lost opportunity. The tide in the affairs of men does not remain at flood -- it ebbs. We may cry out desperately for time to pause in her passage, but time is adamant to every plea and rushes on. Over the bleached bones and jumbled residues of numerous civilizations are written the pathetic words, "Too late." There is an invisible book of life that faithfully records our vigilance or our neglect. Omar Khayyam is right: "The moving finger writes, and having writ moves on."</span></p> <span style="font-family: georgia;font-family:Verdana;font-size:100%;" > </span><p style="font-family: georgia;" align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">We still have a choice today: nonviolent coexistence or violent coannihilation. We must move past indecision to action. We must find new ways to speak for peace in Vietnam and justice throughout the developing world, a world that borders on our doors. If we do not act, we shall surely be dragged down the long, dark, and shameful corridors of time reserved for those who possess power without compassion, might without morality, and strength without sight.</span></p> <span style="font-family: georgia;font-family:Verdana;font-size:100%;" > </span><p style="font-family: georgia;" align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">Now let us begin. Now let us rededicate ourselves to the long and bitter, but beautiful, struggle for a new world. This is the calling of the sons of God, and our brothers wait eagerly for our response. Shall we say the odds are too great? Shall we tell them the struggle is too hard? Will our message be that the forces of American life militate against their arrival as full men, and we send our deepest regrets? Or will there be another message -- of longing, of hope, of solidarity with their yearnings, of commitment to their cause, whatever the cost? The choice is ours, and though we might prefer it otherwise, we must choose in this crucial moment of human history.</span></p> <span style="font-family: georgia;font-family:Verdana;font-size:100%;" > </span><p style="font-family: georgia;" align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">As that noble bard of yesterday, James Russell Lowell, eloquently stated:</span></p> <span style="font-family: georgia;font-family:Verdana;font-size:100%;" > </span><p style="font-family: georgia;" align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;"><i>Once to every man and nation comes a moment to decide, </i></span></p> <p style="font-family: georgia;" align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;"><i>In the strife of Truth and Falsehood, for the good or evil side; </i></span></p> <p style="font-family: georgia;" align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;"><i>Some great cause, God's new Messiah offering each the bloom or blight, </i></span></p> <p style="font-family: georgia;" align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;"><i>And the choice goes by forever 'twixt that darkness and that light. </i></span></p> <p style="font-family: georgia;" align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;"><i>Though the cause of evil prosper, yet 'tis truth alone is strong</i></span></p> <p style="font-family: georgia;" align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;"><i>Though her portions be the scaffold, and upon the throne be wrong </i></span></p> <p style="font-family: georgia;" align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;"><i>Yet that scaffold sways the future, and behind the dim unknown </i></span></p> <p style="font-family: georgia;" align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;"><i>Standeth God within the shadow, keeping watch above his own.<br /></i></span></p> <p style="font-family: georgia;" align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">And if we will only make the right choice, we will be able to transform this pending cosmic elegy into a creative psalm of peace. </span></p> <p style="font-family: georgia;" align="left"><span style="font-size:100%;">If we will make the right choice, we will be able to transform the jangling discords of our world into a beautiful symphony of brotherhood.</span></p><span style="font-size:100%;"> </span>Courtney Desiree Morrishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04877422685485639690noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20271824.post-37818851721983216342009-01-17T01:13:00.005-06:002009-01-17T01:38:04.892-06:00A Prayer for Gaza<span style="font-family:georgia;">I'll be short. It has become clear (as though we needed clarifying) that the state of Israel is devoted to nothing less than a project of genocide against the people of Gaza. Since Israel intensified the occupation in December 2008, the violence has escalated beyond what many of us could have imagined. Israel has rained down phosphorus bombs on UN facilities, approximately 1,000 people have been murdered in this war, nearly a third of them children. </span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;"><br />Our tax dollars fund these atrocities yet our government says nothing. The brutality that is being unleashed on these people is immoral and unconscionable. But the fact is, I have felt powerless to do anything about it other than giving money, complaining loudly about it to anyone who will listen, and participating in solidarity demos.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">My husband felt the same and decided to make his small contribution by writing a song about these horrors and expressing his solidarity with the people of Gaza. It's called "A Prayer for Gaza" and I am honored to have been able to participate by providing the vocals for the track. By tomorrow I'll have a slide show up with the song for your listening/viewing pleasure. Check out the song and let us know what you think. In the meantime, you can see the lyrics here. If you live in the Austin area please be sure to come out to the "Solidarity with Gaza" rally being held on </span><span style="font-family:georgia;">Saturday at the Capitol on 11th and Congress, January 17, 2:00-5:00pm. There'll be speakers, poets, and live performers at this gathering to support the people of Gaza and take a collective stand against the genocidal, apartheid policies of the state of Israel. For more information on how you can get involved in local organizing efforts check out <a href="http://www.solidaritywithgaza.org/index.html">www.solidaritywithgaza.org</a>. </span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;"><br />---------------------------------------------</span><br /><span style="font-style: italic;font-family:georgia;" >A Prayer for Gaza</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">Gaza, so far away</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">Blood spills as bombs rain </span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">Over Gaza</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">Gaza, they don't explain</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">The crimes of history</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">And why you feel that way</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">Oh, Gaza</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">I pray for you</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">Gaza</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">Oh say, can you see, an alliance, so unholy</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">Oh say, can you see, an alliance, so unholy</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">As King David's drones</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">Vaporize the homes</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">And they send in tanks</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">To fight kids with stones</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">And the trees and grass</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">Have all burned to ash</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">Cause the stars and stripes</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">Ponied up the cash</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">As they gasp for breath</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">Or they starve to death</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">While the army kills</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">And the world stands still</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">Gaza, soon come the day</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">When you see justice</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">And you can heal your pain</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">Oh Gaza, </span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">I pray for you</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">Gaza,</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">What can we do</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">Gaza, </span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">No time to lose</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">Gaza,</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">It's up to you</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">Gaza</span>Courtney Desiree Morrishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04877422685485639690noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20271824.post-21382951542728562522009-01-16T20:09:00.002-06:002009-01-16T20:25:00.762-06:00What I Must Say About Ana Sisnett<span style="font-family: georgia;">Goodbye Ana.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">Carole has called and I have just placed the phone back in its cradle. I tried to see her and I didn't. I called her and told her I was coming to see her. Went to bed that night and dreamt that I went to visit her, arrived at her door and was already too late and she had gone before I could hold her one more time. </span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">I'm finally learning to trust my dreams, to trust when my ancestors are preparing me for what must come.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">I could say that I wished I had called sooner (and I do), dialed her number when I thought of her instead of giving myself over to the work piled in front of me. But the truth is, I didn't. I know that if Ana didn't tolerate that sort of shoulda-coulda-woulda foolishness in life, she damn sure wouldn't stand for it now. </span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">She was my sistren, my Caribbean woman-sister, that lover, that mother, that dream builder, that community organizer, that poeta with hips como una sirena. We were always in love with each other.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">And now Ana is gone.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">What I do wish: that I could have read her selections from the chapbook that I've been working on. That I could have sung for her one more time because she loved to hear me sing. That I could hug her, wrap her up in my arms. That I could have talked to her about how much I miss my grandmother who passed in October. I suppose that, in a way, her dying doesn't change a thing. I can still sing for her, read her poems, talk to her about my grandmother. She is eternal now and present everywhere. I will whisper my secrets to her in the quiet shade of trees, listen for her laughter in the wind. I will carry her with me in my ears, in my mouth, in my heart.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">Ana always made me feel like I had a right to believe in myself. She named me a writer before I had the courage to give myself the name. She believed in my ability to create, to tap into my grandmother's magic, to become the woman that I was born to be. She liked me just the way I was doing exactly what I was made to do. Ana believed in me. </span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">I pray that her family be comforted. I wish her partner rest -- it's been a long and, too often, lonely road and now it's time for her to heal. I pray for Ana's children -- there comes a day when we all must say goodbye (for now) to the woman who brought us into the world and it never stops hurting like hell. My wish for them tonight is that one day it just doesn't hurt so bad. And for the friends -- the poets, the girl friends, the organizers, the artists, the colored girls, the sister lesbos, the wild ones, the feminists, the ones who didn't make it, the ones who are still trying, and the ones that will never forget her -- send her your love as she crosses over and know that she is sending hers back to you.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">Goodbye Ana. I miss you.</span>Courtney Desiree Morrishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04877422685485639690noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20271824.post-45235473614318858632009-01-16T13:19:00.002-06:002009-01-16T13:20:50.971-06:00Ana Sisnett 1952-2009<a style="font-family: georgia;" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgCNdI7IF2HUB36oFyxyJPQnbt5AoW3ZV9mz4uBIbxOH98JuHy4vvGyJ4DRFez-mXT_GEN_ow-iqwhbwPTeN8647bQKqonqJg2QnjWBWpPSc9r64-kPSC4is8tGbCmaHT3eYvYD/s1600-h/Ana+Sisnett.jpg"><img style="margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; float: left; cursor: pointer; width: 265px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgCNdI7IF2HUB36oFyxyJPQnbt5AoW3ZV9mz4uBIbxOH98JuHy4vvGyJ4DRFez-mXT_GEN_ow-iqwhbwPTeN8647bQKqonqJg2QnjWBWpPSc9r64-kPSC4is8tGbCmaHT3eYvYD/s320/Ana+Sisnett.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5291973622300055058" border="0" /></a><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">Celebrated author, artist and activist Sisnett dies after battle with cancer. </span><p style="font-family: georgia;"><span class="byline">By <a href="mailto:joshundasanders@statesman.com">Joshunda Sanders</a></span><br /><span class="source">AMERICAN-STATESMAN STAFF </span><br /> <span class="date"> Thursday, January 15, 2009 </span></p> <p style="font-family: georgia;">From the children lulled to sleep by her writing to the underprivileged people she helped connect to the World Wide Web, the passing of Ana Sisnett leaves a void in the Austin arts and advocacy communities, friends say. </p> <p style="font-family: georgia;">The celebrated local author, artist, poet and social activist died Tuesday afternoon at her home after a three-year battle with ovarian cancer. She was 56. </p> <p style="font-family: georgia;">"Ana was involved in the arts community at a grass-roots level, and she connected the arts, social justice work and technology," Lisa Byrd, a longtime friend and executive director of ProArts Collective, said Wednesday. "She had a good life, and she smiled at that. She really had an international impact with her activism. I will miss her deeply." </p> <p style="font-family: georgia;">Sisnett was executive director of Austin Free-Net, which seeks to make the Internet accessible to everyone. She spoke internationally about community technology training and online access, policies and issues. Free-Net put words into action in the wake of Hurricanes Katrina and Rita by giving evacuees access to online resources and message boards. </p> <p style="font-family: georgia;">Sisnett received several awards for her community activism, among them the City of Austin's 2001 Susan G. Hadden Telecommunity Award. </p> <p style="font-family: georgia;">Her partner, Priscilla Hale, said Sisnett had "an amazing passion for human rights service and work, which is reflected in every aspect of her life." </p> <p style="font-family: georgia;">Her best-known published work is "Grannie Jus' Come!" — a children's book inspired by her childhood memories of her grandmother — but her writings were also included in several anthologies. </p> <p style="font-family: georgia;">Sisnett was born in Panama; she moved to Los Angeles when she was 13. She graduated with a bachelor's degree in Spanish and communications from the University of California, San Diego, said Hale, who knew Sisnett for about 11 years. After moving to Austin with her then-husband in 1983, Sisnett took courses in Latin American studies at the University of Texas. </p> <p style="font-family: georgia;">Jon Lebkowsky, one of the principals at Social Web Strategies, a social media networking company, said he met Sisnett shortly after her arrival in Austin. </p> <p style="font-family: georgia;">She was "passionate and powerful in her support of people who are traditionally underserved online," he said. </p> <p style="font-family: georgia;">"Some people just want to make the system work the way that it should. She was one of those people," Lebkowsky said. </p> <p style="font-family: georgia;">Sisnett worked for several years at the now-defunct nonprofit Foundation for a Compassionate Society and at the Peace House, both of which promoted community activism. Sisnett became executive director of Austin Free-Net in 1998. </p> <p style="font-family: georgia;">She was a volunteer and organizer for ALLGO, formerly known as Austin Latino Lesbian Gay Organization. Sisnett was also a volunteer with Alma de Mujer, a retreat center near Lake Travis for indigenous women. </p> <p style="font-family: georgia;">"She was always willing to teach anyone all that she knows," said Sisnett's daughter, Meredith Sisnett. "She was an international teacher of love." </p> <p style="font-family: georgia;">Sisnett enjoyed writing poetry, but she wrote less in recent years because she didn't want to write about her illness. Instead, Byrd said, Sisnett preferred creating visual art. In the last years of her life, her grandchildren provided her with consistent comfort, Hale said. </p> <p style="font-family: georgia;">Sisnett is survived by Hale; two children, Meredith Sisnett, 36, and Ghamal Webb, 31; and two grandchildren. Funeral services are pending. </p> <p style="font-family: georgia;">Byrd described Sisnett as a woman with a regal demeanor who also loved to salsa dance. </p> <p style="font-family: georgia;">"She expected to be treated like a queen — especially the older she got — because she had contributed to her community so greatly," Byrd said. </p>Courtney Desiree Morrishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04877422685485639690noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20271824.post-91467929005561611522009-01-08T20:26:00.000-06:002009-01-08T21:54:05.706-06:00The Damage an Informant Can Do<span style="font-family: georgia;">About a week ago, I learned from a friend that activists in Austin had just found out that one of their own, an activist named Brandon Darby, had publicly acknowledged that he had actively infiltrated RNC protest groups as an FBI informant. According to </span><a style="font-family: georgia;" href="http://www.democracynow.org/2009/1/6/prominent_austin_activist_admits_he_infiltrated">Democracy Now!</a><span style="font-family: georgia;"> "Darby has admitted to wearing recording devices at planning meetings and wearing a transmitter embedded in his belt during the convention. He is expected to testify on behalf of the government later this month in the trial of two Texas activists who were arrested at the RNC on charges of making and possessing Molotov cocktails." The two young men are facing up to 15 years in prison for these charges. What is most sickening however, is that, Darby may not only have spied on these activists, but evidence suggests that he also goaded them into engaging in these acts. This would make Darby not just an informant, but a provacateur which means that these young men are the victims of entrapment and may go to prison not for any real crime but for trusting someone that they thought was an ally. According to the </span><a style="font-family: georgia;" href="http://www.texasobserver.org/blog/index.php/2008/12/31/lifes-a-snitch/">Texas Chronicle</a><span style="font-family: georgia;"> "The Molotov cocktails were among the items seized in a raid that led to felony indictments of McCay and Crowder, now known as the “Texas Two.” They were charged with possession of unregistered firearms (the cocktails). Information gathered by Darby may have contributed to broader charges against </span><a style="font-family: georgia;" href="http://rnc8.org/" target="_blank" title="RNC 8">eight others</a><span style="font-family: georgia;"> from around the country for conspiracy to riot and conspiracy to damage property in the furtherance of terrorism."</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">I was shocked but not altogether surprised by this news. I found out during my first year of undergrad at the University of Texas at Austin that the campus police department routinely placed plainclothes police officers in the meetings of radical student groups on campus -- you know, just to keep an eye on them. That was in the fall of 2001, we saw the creation of the Department of Homeland Security, watched a cowboy president wage war on terror, and in the middle of it all tried to figure out what we could do to challenge the fascist state transformations taking place before our very eyes. At the time, however, it seemed silly that there were cops in our meetings -- we weren't the Panthers or the Brown Berets or even some of rowdier direction action anti-globalization activists (although we admired them all), we were just young people who didn't believe war was the best response to the 9-11 attacks. But it wasn't silly, the FBI does not tend to dismiss political work, be it large or small, any organization can provoke the scrutiny of the state; perhaps your organization poses a large threat, or maybe you're small now but one day you'll grow up and be too big to reign in. The FBI and the state usually opt to kill the movement before it grows.</span><br /><br /><div style="text-align: left; font-family: georgia;">But if the FBI says "Kill them before they grow," informants are the hired gunmen. Government agencies pick people that no one will notice. Oftentimes it's impossible to prove that their informants because they have insulated themselves in the community by appearing to be completely dedicated to the cause of social justice. They establish intimate relationships with people, becoming friends and lovers, often serving in leadership roles in our organizations. A cursory reading of the literature on social movements and organizations in the 1960s and 1970s reveals this fact. The leadership of the American Indian Movement was rife with informants; it is suspected that informants are also largely responsible for the downfall of the Black Panther Party and the same can be surmised about the anti-war movement as well. In addition to all of the other harmful and disruptive tactics that the FBI developed to destabilize movements, informants are the best tool in their arsenal. Why? Because in the end the short-term damage that informants do is secondary to the larger, more dangerous implications of their work. <br /></div><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">This morning I listened to Malik Raheem, the founder of Common Ground in New Orleans, talk about how devastated he was by this betrayal and it just made me feel crushed. Several times during his interview with Amy Goodman he said that he felt as though his heart had been broken upon learning what Darby had done. Moreover, he felt guilty and responsible for all of the activists, particularly young women, who had left the organization because of Darby. Others have pointed out how Darby created conflict in all of the organizations that he worked with, yet people were hesitant to hold him accountable because of his history and reputation as an organizer and his "dedication" to "the work." This made me wonder how many times informants will create deliberately create conflict in organizations with the specific goal of dismantling or neutralizing organizations and discouraging other organizers. Some people leave these organizations and reject political organizing altogehter. They leave and never come back, but the informant stays around to wreak further havoc -- mission accomplished. Maybe if we as organizers made collective accountability a more central part of our organizing practices we could neutralize people who are working on behalf of the state to undermine our struggles. I'm not talking about witch hunts; I'm talking about organizing in such a way that we nip a potential Brandon Darby in the bud before he can go somewhere else and hurt more people. The truth is informants are hard to spot, but my guess is that where there is smoke there's fire and someone who creates chaos wherever they go is one of two things: 1) an informant or 2) an irresponsible, unaccountable time bomb who can be unintentionally just as effective at undermining social justice organizing as an informant.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">Another more troubling turn in this tale is the way in which Darby has publicly acknowledged his role as an informant, yet insists that this was for the greater good of the movement and reflects his commitment to social justice work. Calling the actions of the two Texas activists, who are currently in federal detention, "dangerous" he states,</span><br /><br /><span style="font-style: italic; font-family: georgia;">I strongly believe that people innocent of an act should stand up for themselves and that those who choose to engage in an act should accept responsibility and explain the reasoning for their choices. </span> <span style="font-style: italic; font-family: georgia;"><br /><br />It is very dangerous when a few individuals engage in or act on a belief system in which they feel they know the real truth and that all others are ignorant and therefore have no right to meet and express their political views.<br /><br /></span><span style="font-style: italic; font-family: georgia;">Additionally, when people act out of anger and hatred, and then claim that their actions were part of a movement or somehow tied into the struggle for social justice only after being caught, it's damaging to the efforts of those who do give of themselves to better this world. Many people become activists as a result of discovering that others have distorted history and made heroes and assigned intentions to people who really didn't act to better the world. The practice of placing noble intentions after the fact on actions which did not have noble motivations has no place in a movement for social justice.</span> <br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">The fact that Darby had no sense of irony writing this open letter, quite frankly, confounds me. The statement "When people act out of anger and hatred, and then claim that their actions were part of a movement or somehow tied into the struggle for social justice only after being caught, it's damaging to the efforst of those who do give of themselves to better this world," is so absurd as to be laughable. But ain't a damn thing funny. Darby wants us to believe that he agreed to serve as an informant to prevent two people from committing a violent act that would hurt the movement. He wants us to believe his intentions were pure and noble. But he's making that claim after the fact, after he got caught. So in a sense he's right -- his actions are quite damaging to those of us "who do give of themselve to better this world." People like him make a mockery of that struggle. It's disingenuous of him to present himself as the lone voice of reason -- if he were so concerned why didn't he bring his concerns to other organizers, confront the people that he disagreed with -- how did working for the state become the best option? Or perhaps that was merely another high road he felt he had to walk alone -- I will burn this village, in order to save it. </span><a style="font-family: georgia;" href="http://www.indymedia.org/en/2008/12/918526.shtml">Click here to read the full version of his open letter on Austin Indymedia</a><span style="font-family: georgia;">.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">Luckily, in the aftermath of Darby's revelation, Austin activists have come together to denounce Darby and call him out for what he is -- a rat. The Austin Informant Working Group has released a statement that takes Darby to task for his actions and has refused to let him represent himself as a guy trying to do the right thing. </span><a style="font-family: georgia;" href="http://www.indymedia.org/en/2008/12/918526.shtml">Click here to read The Austin Informant Working Group's response to Darby.</a><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">I never met Brandon Darby, never organized with him, yet I know so many people who were connected to him and are reeling between grief and rage. The truth is that even if the two young men that Darby helped to entrap don't go to prison, the damage to our activist communities is done. Since Darby revealed that he has been serving as an informant, I have listened to several people talk about how his actions have shaken them, made them feel like fools for not recognizing the informant in their midst. This sort of self-doubt is particularly troubling because that is exactly what the state wants. This should be a lesson to all of us, because Brandon Darby is really only the tip of the iceberg. COINTELPRO has never stopped; the U.S. government has been engaged in an ongoing campaign to target and punish dissenters, activists, and community organizers since World War I. And who knows what skeletons will fall out of the closet after the Bush administration comes to an end or years later when the FBI begins declassifying documents from the first 10 years of the 21st century? What happened with Brandon Darby can and will happen again -- the question is are we going to choose a different strategy and prepare ourselves so that the work can continue or are we going to allow ourselves to be immobilized every time a mole turns up in our communities?</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">This is what informants do to us and our movements. They make us look at each other sideways, doubt our ability to discern people's character, make us reticent to trust one another as we struggle to create a better world. As far as the state is concerned, it doesn't matter how many people go to jail, stop doing the work after getting burned one too many times, or even how many people die. All of that is just gravy for the real work -- crushing people's faith in the possibility that we can collectively create something better, that collective struggle can yield results that change our lives. Informants are hired to make us stop believing in ourselves and our collective power. That's what they do.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">To the FBI and Brandon Darby: I will not let you rob me of my faith in our capacity to change this world. I will assume that every meeting and organization that I walk into has already been infiltrated. I will make it my business to demonstrate in my political practice that the work I do is better than what he/she is being paid to do. I will fight to make him/her believe that his/her small axe matters and that his/her labor would be better spent creating a world that has no use for informants. I will kill him/her with kindness and my love for justice. I will challenge him/her to reclaim their power and get themselves on the right side of history. I will work creatively with others to develop a model of what social justice organizing rooted in a love ethic looks like. I hope that one day s/he will understand and want to struggle with me instead of against me. Because that's what organizers do. </span>Courtney Desiree Morrishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04877422685485639690noreply@blogger.com313tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20271824.post-56391573489840738412008-12-09T21:41:00.000-06:002008-12-09T22:11:40.642-06:00Mississippi Goddamn...<span style="font-family: georgia;font-family:georgia;" >There are some occurences in our country that are so outrageous you almost can't believe that they could actually have happened. For example, what does one make of the fact that two Black men (admittedly, uber-conservatives) were behind several different attempts to delegitimize the presidential victory of President-elect Barack Obama by arguing that he is not actually a </span><a style="font-family: georgia;" href="http://www.salon.com/src/pass/sitepass/spon/sitepass_website_refresh.html">citizen</a><span style="font-family: georgia;font-family:georgia;" >.</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;font-family:georgia;" ><br />I wish I were making this up.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;font-family:georgia;" >Alan Keyes, the former House Negro of the GOP and now just another disaffected Black conservative, and Supreme Court Justice Clarence Thomas both were scheming to advance this dastardly scheme. Keyes filed a lawsuit against Obama, a thinly veiled vinidictive attack since Obama whupped him in the 2004 Illinois Senate race; and Thomas, who simply seems to finds his purpose in life by fucking over Black people whenever he can (slapping down affirmative action, deriding mythical, Cadillac-driving, steak-eating welfare queens -- including his own sister -- and sexually harassing his Black female colleagues) and cheesing up to white folks passed along this case, brought by retired attorney Leo C. Donofrio, for consideration to the Supreme Court. The justices collectively refused to hear the case bringing an end to at least part of the conspiracy theory around Obama's birth and citizenship.</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;font-family:georgia;" ><br />But it seems like folks all over America are pissed about Barack being president. Just check out what's happening in Mississippi. </span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;font-family:georgia;" ><br />Two Black male students were thrown off a bus in Mississippi after stating that "Obama is our president." The bus driver told them not to make this statement. When the boys pointed out that this was not whimsy or even disrespectful, but merely a historical fact she threw them off the bus. </span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;font-family:georgia;" ><br />I couldn't make this shit up if tried.</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;font-family:georgia;" ><br />At the same middle school that the boys attended a gym teacher warned students that if they mentioned Obama's name they would be suspended from school.</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;font-family:georgia;" ><br />You would think that after 300 years of white privilege allowing white people to always be the winner, they wouldn't be begrudge people of color this one president without a fuss. But it turns out that white people are, in fact, sore losers.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">During the Civil Rights Movement, of all the places that young activists, Black and White, traveled to down South to help Black folks living under Jim Crow, Mississippi was by far the state that was the most feared for its brtual repression and the commitment of white folks there to maintain white supremacy in the face of social change. More than 40 year after this movement and those that followed it made it possible for Barack Obama to be president of this country, these events make you wonder how much has changed. For some people, not much. And if they have they way it never will.</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;font-family:georgia;" ></span><span style="font-family: georgia;font-family:georgia;" ><br />I leave you now with the words of that great Black performer and visionary, Miss Nina Simone.</span><br /><span style="font-style: italic; font-family: georgia;font-family:georgia;" >Alabama's got me so upset</span><br /><span style="font-style: italic; font-family: georgia;font-family:georgia;" >Tennessee made me lose my rest</span><br /><span style="font-style: italic; font-family: georgia;font-family:georgia;" >But everybody knows about Mississippi</span><br /><span style="font-style: italic; font-family: georgia;font-family:georgia;" >GODDAMN!</span>Courtney Desiree Morrishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04877422685485639690noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20271824.post-86470169101333264792008-10-30T11:59:00.001-05:002008-10-30T12:21:05.295-05:00The Wonderful (Art) World of Renee Cox<a style="font-family: georgia;" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://www.nerve.com/Photography/Cox/Shocking/gallery/YoMamasLastSupper.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 610px; height: 145px;" src="http://www.nerve.com/Photography/Cox/Shocking/gallery/YoMamasLastSupper.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><span style="font-family: georgia;">(Yo Mama's Last Supper)</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">Who is Renee Cox, you ask? Simply put, Renee Cox is one of the fiercest, smartest, engaging, and disruptive photographers/visual artists doing her thing in the art world today. And I won't deny that it tickles me that she is a Black woman who has consistently defied boundaries and unapolegetically done her thing as an artist. She is perhaps best well known for using her own naked body in her work as a way of tackling questions around race, gender, sexuality, desire, and power and not being afraid to use humor to make her point visually. Personally, I have been deeply moved by her attempt to reclaim and celebrate the black female body in a cultural landscape that only ever sees black women's bodies as sites of exploitation, degradation, or base sexuality. Cox puts her naked body out there and restores Black women's full humanity -- our bodies are given full expression. Her images range from the sacred to the perverse and that is truly the beauty of her work -- there is no sugarcoating or flattening Black women's experiences in these images. Black women are madonnas holding on to their dying sons; they are Caribbean national heroes defending their communities and resisting slavery; and they're freaks who pour their bodies into latex and masturbate in front of the camera.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">In short Black women don't need to be put on pedestals, we just want to be treated like human beings who experience the feel range of emotions and desires as anyone else on this planet. And that is why I love Renee Cox. She's creating space and challenging convention and wants everybody else to do the same. She's putting her body on display but not to fulfill someone else's desires, but to articulate her own. In the wonderful (art) world of Renee Cox, it is a fucking party and everyone is invited. But you gotta play by Renee's rules.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">peace.</span>Courtney Desiree Morrishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04877422685485639690noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20271824.post-65376090900132831642008-09-19T09:12:00.001-05:002008-09-19T11:30:27.703-05:00Tim'm presents The Front Porch at Dallas Southern Pride, Oct. 3rd<span style="font-family: georgia;">Come hang out with family on the front porch, ya'll! My homegirl, Samiya Bashir, a phenomenal poet and gorgeous human being will be reading. </span><br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj2dDvtUw4C19zi1oJr5DgbVzj-tXAW_2goBzvRzqjZoNQs08O91mlH1PphhLo5tn6_4H5Ozil4BnjE6vZeS2-xXSxzEbW_NLnrkOCsFaRW1k8K2FhGnKRx0iBJH2P0sLtflubh/s1600-h/l_8cfd7892e5d0ef6ad7bf2867ada3d5b2.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj2dDvtUw4C19zi1oJr5DgbVzj-tXAW_2goBzvRzqjZoNQs08O91mlH1PphhLo5tn6_4H5Ozil4BnjE6vZeS2-xXSxzEbW_NLnrkOCsFaRW1k8K2FhGnKRx0iBJH2P0sLtflubh/s320/l_8cfd7892e5d0ef6ad7bf2867ada3d5b2.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5247766905779313154" border="0" /></a>Courtney Desiree Morrishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04877422685485639690noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20271824.post-61252117321976869342008-09-19T09:12:00.000-05:002008-09-19T09:16:55.133-05:00open flesh<span style="font-family: georgia;">they're bleaching in india.</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">jamaica, too.</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">in ghana, nigeria, and just about everywhere on</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">the continent.</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">transform warm, mud bodies</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">into jaundiced,</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">paper flesh.</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">the strands so thin and worn</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">the skin will not hold.</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">this is flesh </span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">made transparent</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">these bodies keep no secrets.</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">the veins loudly tell </span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">all that they know.</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">me,</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i'll keep my secrets.</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">these arms, breasts, legs, torso, ears, and buttocks</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">no one will extract my stories from my skin</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">this trauma of race.</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i will not underwrite my own death</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">i will not erase myself.</span>Courtney Desiree Morrishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04877422685485639690noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20271824.post-40036141534003936572008-08-13T23:36:00.000-05:002008-08-13T23:43:28.450-05:00For those I've lost<span style="font-family: georgia;">I feel as if I've been saying goodbye to people I admire for a long time. There the father of one of my dearest friends, who died only days after celebrating his daughter's marriage. He was a great admirer of Nelson Mandela and Mahatma Gandhi, a lawyer who never forgot who the law was supposed to protect.</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">I miss him.</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">An uncle with a nasty mouth and sweet ways who taught me to take everything and everybody with a grain of salt and if they don't like it, well, fuck 'em, cause I don't have to nothing I don't want to do just because a whole heap of fools are doing it.</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">The son who followed him to the other side a year later after pulling dozens of men, women, and children out of the nightmare of Hurricane Katrina. His heart stopped in the middle of the night and I like to think it was because his big old heart just couldn't stand the horror of what he'd seen in a drowning city.</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">A young poet who drowns before the world has the opportunity to really experience and understand her power. Her words inspire me to say everything that I want to say while I am alive.</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">And then there are the celebrities. People that you never met but that influence you all the same. The make you laugh, you sing along to songs that they made famous and somehow they become a part of you as though you had known them all of their lives.</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">And then they're gone.</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">For all the people I've lost:</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">Luis Moreno</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">Aubrey Brinsley Brandon</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">Elbert Brandon, Jr.</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">Raul Salinas</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">Michael Patrick</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">Shannon Leigh</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">Heath Ledger</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">Bernie Mac</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">Isaac Hayes</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">And if my mourning them makes sense to no one but me, all I can say is that somehow they touched something deep inside of me that affirmed for me what it means to be human. And for that they deserve my respect and my tears.</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">peace.</span>Courtney Desiree Morrishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04877422685485639690noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20271824.post-26781547475001288112008-07-31T23:44:00.000-05:002008-08-01T00:37:38.846-05:00It's true...a Black woman's booty makes everything more interesting<a style="font-family: georgia;" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi7mvnuKkCmHNDM9hvsxs7i4HeLhX8LY7kbNsCxmpxi5yWL24Rq3RPpcdpuCk3WdyOStdFEhSIl0e2wuOXMBroBSEEVu55eo30TPZvpgtmc5EFBLWWV-V6wbQsOxMC5y5rPZcvW/s1600-h/IMG_7279.JPG"><img style="margin: 0pt 0pt 10px 10px; float: right; cursor: pointer;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi7mvnuKkCmHNDM9hvsxs7i4HeLhX8LY7kbNsCxmpxi5yWL24Rq3RPpcdpuCk3WdyOStdFEhSIl0e2wuOXMBroBSEEVu55eo30TPZvpgtmc5EFBLWWV-V6wbQsOxMC5y5rPZcvW/s320/IMG_7279.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5229409443682448290" border="0" /></a><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">As you may have noticed, I generally tend to blog whenever I come across something so crazy, so completely flabbergasting that I have no choice but to complain about it in cyberspace. After 7 years of living in Austin, I think it is safe to consider myself a naturalized Austinite; as a Black woman this is not always an easy existence but generally speaking I am more happy with Austin than I am dissatisfied. Like other Austinites, a week rarely goes by when I don't read <span style="font-style: italic;">The Austin Chronicle</span>, the capitol city's version of <span style="font-style: italic;">The Village Voice</span>. With artwork and articles that cover local news, art, and events with a satirical, tongue-in-cheek manner, <span style="font-style: italic;">The Austin Chronicle</span> provides a smart, welcome contrast to our city's less interesting, more stodgy daily <span style="font-style: italic;">The Austin-American Statesman</span>.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">Well, usually.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">Sometimes, edgy and tongue-in-cheek can go too far. Or, hell, I'll just say it -- when it comes to racial, gendered, and sexual politics, there's a fine line between edgy and problematic. And this Thursday <span style="font-style: italic;">The Chronicle</span> totally crossed it.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">When I first saw the cover I paused and then grimaced. Why, one might wonder, would <span style="font-style: italic;">The Chronicle</span> have a photo of a Black woman holding an avocado placed suggestively just below her ass on the cover of the paper as the art for a story that has nothing to do with Black women, nudity, or art? Follow that up with the fact that the teaser for the article stated "The Avocado: A Backstory," with extra emphasis on the <span style="font-weight: bold;">"back"</span>. Now I know racism and sexism when I see it and given the American fascination with Black women's booties (just look at the pop culture empire Beyoncé has built on hers) it's hard not to read racism into things. First of all, I would be offended if the model had not been black -- why are women's bodies always being appropriated to advertise or sell things that have nothing to do with the item (or in this case, article) that is being hawked. Having said that, I don't think it is a coincidence that the photo focuses on her ass and the avocado placed teasingly beneath it.<br /><br />Images of Black women's asses have been a part of American popular culture since the 19th century; during slavery it was argued that Black women's exaggerated womanly endowments actually proved scientifically that we had a greater proclivity for sexual intercourse than white woman and were biologically insatiable (a convenient explanation for all the white slave masters who couldn't resist tipping out to the slave quarters). The Black woman's behind taps into an entire repository of collective cultural memory and meaning that we may not consciously think about in our daily lives but that shapes our perceptions of the Other on a daily basis. From Sarah Baartman to Josephine Baker to JLo, White America still just can't get enough of dat ass.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">Still, not wanting to believe the worst (my homegirl Juli teases me constantly about my relentess optimism and willingness to give folks the benefit of the doubt), I didn't pick up the paper, but walked away and said to myself, "Damn, I really hope this story justifies the cover."</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">Well, it doesn't.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">It's a story about avocados -- that's it. The article is about the avocado, the whole avocado, and nothing but the avocado. It explores the untold story of the avocado from its history as a wonderous fruit that fascinated the Spanish conquistadores to its contemporary prodution and widespread popularity all the way down to how much of it is consumed around the world (not surprisingly, Mexico w</span><a style="font-family: georgia;" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh5FRwE9nJg9wf1s6FBWKmmVum2gZTUPEgHr7WlMPwdz4liaLlSK6-nQV_t-h2xlK9BYB_8Gw8oFmfZ2PtXKkKILOEEk4dOhPZ78q-6n2yeQBYrISjcRj_Q0ybTSK8Uc9TMr-h5/s1600-h/feature_0731.jpg"><img style="margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; float: left; cursor: pointer; width: 273px; height: 226px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh5FRwE9nJg9wf1s6FBWKmmVum2gZTUPEgHr7WlMPwdz4liaLlSK6-nQV_t-h2xlK9BYB_8Gw8oFmfZ2PtXKkKILOEEk4dOhPZ78q-6n2yeQBYrISjcRj_Q0ybTSK8Uc9TMr-h5/s320/feature_0731.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5229413797964944050" border="0" /></a><span style="font-family:georgia;">ins handsdown -- 20 lbs. of avocado per person each year -- !Que Viva!) So why this Black woman's ass? What in the hell was <span style="font-style: italic;">The Chronicle</span> thinking?</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">Well, apparently someone else must have been thinking the same thing, because by the time I got home to blog my grievance, the picture was not on the site. Gone was the visually arresting, but deeply problematic image of a Black woman's derriere, and in its place was a much more suitable, if less interesting image of workers in a Dole factory, presumably stocking avocados. </span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;"><br />Does this mean that a reader pulled <span style="font-style: italic;">The Chronicle's</span> coattails before I could or did someone in the newsroom have the sense to call this photo out for what it was: a cheap play on tired ass stereotypes to push an uninteresting story on readers who would not have given it the time of day had they not hoped to see more of this woman's booty (and it is a pretty pleasing ass...but I digress).</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">My advice to <span style="font-style: italic;">The Chronicle</span>: stick to smart news coverage and politically edgy and intelligent art. Don't stoop. There's really no need to reproduce racism and sexism in your pages when the work you usually do sells it self. Don't use me or my sisters to reach out to or enhance your readership, just do good work. There's no need to exploit our bodies, leave that to wack music videos and <span style="font-style: italic;">King Magazine</span>, don't bring it into the news. I don't want to feel assaulted reading the local weekly when all I came to do was get my news fix.<br /></span>Courtney Desiree Morrishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04877422685485639690noreply@blogger.com9tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20271824.post-4603033106695802842008-07-31T17:17:00.000-05:002008-07-31T17:56:29.273-05:00R. Kelly Acquitted...An Update on the Criminal (In)Justice System<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj4MrhuWSY-Egg4WTOF5x4hAlALICGTXNuFsPAyqWCK96UOGri4g9trIH3CDxozTrqp8a63E_vL40J9AeFwrd8V1q28i_BB9zAk3Box1BIgliHE17EThfzdhvFpiNcDSfCFjTYG/s1600-h/us-news-rkelly-1-tb.jpg"><img style="margin: 0pt 0pt 10px 10px; float: right; cursor: pointer;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj4MrhuWSY-Egg4WTOF5x4hAlALICGTXNuFsPAyqWCK96UOGri4g9trIH3CDxozTrqp8a63E_vL40J9AeFwrd8V1q28i_BB9zAk3Box1BIgliHE17EThfzdhvFpiNcDSfCFjTYG/s320/us-news-rkelly-1-tb.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5229311837665055234" border="0" /></a><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">I was in Mexico on a work trip that also doubled as my honeymoon when R. Kelly was totally acquitted of 14 counts of child pornography and pedophilia. The victim and her family denied that she was the young woman in the sex tape that showed Kelley having sex with and urinating on a young Black woman that prosecutors said looked as young as 13 years old. Since I was out of the country a</span><span style="font-family:georgia;">nd basically completely incommunicado I had not heard about the acquittal. The truth is I don't really know what to think or to do. If you can't get the majority of Black people in this country to care about the violence that is enacted against Black women or girls why should anybody else? I was deeply disturbed to see the number of Black women who jumped to his defense and attacked the victim; apparently they too have bought into the logic that all Black women are fundamentally "unrape-able" and in sexual terms are fair game for anyone after the age of 13.</span> <span style="font-weight: bold;font-family:georgia;" ><br /><br />For those who are confused let me spell it out for you</span><span style="font-family:georgia;">: When a grown man has sex with a minor it is rape. Even if she said yes it was rape. If it was midnight and her mother is trifling and didn't know where her daughter was or escorted her to the hotel at it was rape. If she asked for it, it was rape. I am not trying to say that there is no place for personal accountability, we all need t</span><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjVZfYevE7hcrP63s5Y7i89BP_mJ0k1m4j8iT6_viZTwtdsU9iwvkM6gRW6oOTUdkHufTJLc5DR9CHs8ZA7L2rhU8hKSjTVrdGJPkPjwl9tAVAYBtcXvBesAFqqx9xBRnuTWXTi/s1600-h/images.jpg"><img style="margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; float: left; cursor: pointer;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjVZfYevE7hcrP63s5Y7i89BP_mJ0k1m4j8iT6_viZTwtdsU9iwvkM6gRW6oOTUdkHufTJLc5DR9CHs8ZA7L2rhU8hKSjTVrdGJPkPjwl9tAVAYBtcXvBesAFqqx9xBRnuTWXTi/s320/images.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5229314914599803634" border="0" /></a><span style="font-family:georgia;">hat in our lives and I belive it is a vital part of social justice and transformation. But let's not confuse apples and oran</span><span style="font-family:georgia;">ges. Even if the girl made a poor decision, that does NOT excuse R. Kelly for sexually assaulting her -- and yes it was sexual assault. If you leave your house unlocked and I walk in and steal all of your belongings, would your neighbors say you deserved to be robbed? Absolutely not. But when it comes to Black women and other women of color, society treats our bodies as if they are public property that can be defaced and devalued at will.</span> <span style="font-family:georgia;"><br /><br />Let me assure you, we and our bodies are not public property.<br /><br />The day is coming, and soon, where Amerika is going to have to answer for its dehumanizing violence against Black women. Wake up, the chickens are coming home to roost real soon.</span> <span style="font-family:georgia;"><br /><br />Here is a link to an article from </span><a style="font-family: georgia;" href="http://www.chicagotribune.com/news/local/chi-r-kelly-verdict-webjun14,0,5273202,print.story">The Chicago Tribune</a><span style="font-family:georgia;"> covering the acquittal. All I can say is that for the Black women who defended R. Kelly, who sold out the victim, and who celebrated his acquittal, think long and hard about who you will call when you find out that a 35 year old man has just sexually assaulted your son or daughter.</span> <span style="font-family: georgia;">I believe with all of my heart that the metaphysical structure of this universe is a circle and the consequences of all the choices that we make individually and collectively find their way back to each of us in the end. But don't worry, the kindness of this universe is infinite, and when you come looking for justice, those of us who still believe in it will be here to help you fight for it.</span>Courtney Desiree Morrishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04877422685485639690noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20271824.post-15428896158805059152008-07-29T16:22:00.001-05:002008-07-29T17:02:01.767-05:00Two or Three or Four or Several Hundred Heads Are Better than One<a style="font-family: georgia;" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/commons/7/73/Termite_Cathedral_DSC03570.jpg"><img style="margin: 0pt 0pt 10px 10px; float: right; cursor: pointer; width: 320px;" src="http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/commons/7/73/Termite_Cathedral_DSC03570.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">So I was riding the bus this morning. I love being on the bus despite the amount of time it takes to get where I want to go because of the interaction I am able to have with people I would otherwise never come into contact with. Of course, sometimes you meet people you would have been totally happy to never meet or speak to but often there are small, wonderous little moments that affirm your faith in people and reveal our quirkiness as a species.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">So I'm sitting on the bus and two gentlemen board and take their seats. One asks the bus driver "Do you know where the Social Security Office is? It's downtown, right?" The bus driver tells him that she has no idea where the Social Security Office is located. Then two of the passengers, both Black women, tell him at almost the exact same time that the Office is located on Cameron Road, not downtown. Then the conversation turns to how they can get to the office riding the bus. As the passengers begin to talk about it, I think to myself, "I've never even needed to go the Social Security Office in my car, let alone the bus, guess I can't help these guys, oh well."</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">Then I hear one woman say, "Well you can take the 320."</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">The other woman responds, "Yeah, but then they'll have to walk a little ways before they get to the office. The 339 will drop them off right in front of it."</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">She then turns to one of the men and says, "You can take the 339, but you got to get to the mall, the Highland Mall."</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">Suddenly, before I can think about it I hear myself say, "Well, the 15 stops downtown and that'll take you right to the transfer station at the Highland Mall." I had forgotten I even knew that and suddenly I was a part of the conversation, the building of this new knowledge that all of us, a woman in nursing scrubs, three black women, and two scruffy looking white guys had created by pooling our collective wisdom. Silly as it sounds, I actually felt really good having been a part of the process.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">Interestingly enough, this ragtag group of bus riders had just demonstrated the scientific/social phenomenon of "emergence." According to one of my favorite podcasts, </span><a style="font-family: georgia;" href="http://www.wnyc.org/shows/radiolab/">Radio Lab</a><span style="font-family:georgia;"> and Wikipedia, emergence refers to the way complex systems and patterns arise out of a multiplicity of relatively simple interactions. An example would be looking at how ants or bees, relatively simple creatures with unsophisticated forms of communication, are able to build architecturally complex structures like their colonies (see the termite "cathedral" produced by a termite colony pictured above for a perfect example of emergence in the natural world)</span><span style="font-family:georgia;">. In a recent book, </span><a style="font-family: georgia;" href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Wisdom_of_Crowds"><i><b>The Wisdom of Crowds: Why the Many Are Smarter Than the Few and How Collective Wisdom Shapes Business, Economies, Societies and Nations</b></i></a><span style="font-family:georgia;">, author James Surowiecki discusses the aggregation of information in groups, resulting in decisions that, he argues, are often better than could have been made by any single member of the group. According to Radio Lab, what separates us from the ants is that as human beings we are aware of our ability to do this and often do this for advantage as a species.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">I was totally bowled over by this theory of emergence, not just because it demonstrates that the practice of cooperation is a central part of the structure of the natural world, but because the science of emergence demonstrates how the world "organizes itself into being without a plan...or a leader." The logic of capitalism and dictatorships or even the need for leadership or the state is actually sort of antithetical to how much of the natural world and human beings as a part of the natural world operate. Much of what we do from giving bus directions to building cities and communities is done without the need for a master plan or a leader telling us what to do. We cooperate on our own because it helps to survive and because as social beings we need each other in both a practical and emotional sense.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">So it turns out that when it comes to the best form of governance for human beings, Mother Nature seems to support anarchism.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">Awesome.</span>Courtney Desiree Morrishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04877422685485639690noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20271824.post-58735197016326305452008-07-25T21:40:00.000-05:002008-07-25T21:59:31.317-05:00For Shannon (Sept. 15, 1987 - June 30, 2008)<a style="font-family: georgia;" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEihs46K__MuWw51MASZkmHj6tR17SvZ997YJjWGZG9T6FHHzlzRiEkaQUrn6Y5sMx_olCXutdE1nsjIJ8-SY9eCaEW9xxvBtUNJt41gZW6sY63x9-d-gfqK4II5pDqdOkn2WzAM/s1600-h/shannonfixed2.jpg"><img style="margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; float: left; cursor: pointer; width: 215px; height: 305px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEihs46K__MuWw51MASZkmHj6tR17SvZ997YJjWGZG9T6FHHzlzRiEkaQUrn6Y5sMx_olCXutdE1nsjIJ8-SY9eCaEW9xxvBtUNJt41gZW6sY63x9-d-gfqK4II5pDqdOkn2WzAM/s320/shannonfixed2.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5227151567137047474" border="0" /></a><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">If we had run into each other on the street, we might not have remembered that we had met briefly, several times at poetry readings, slam competitions, local gatherings for emerging poets and young performers in Austin, TX.</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">If you had known her, you might be surprised that such a small woman, such a young woman could write with the intensity, beauty, and wisdom of someone who had known this planet many times. You might flinch when you heard her curse, spitting venom and sugar with equal parts grace and fearlessness. You'd be surprised to run into her again, randomly, on the street; later on you'd think to yourself, "Somehow, I remembered her being taller."</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">I did not know Shannon Leigh well. I just loved her work and admired her strength and her willingness as an artist to push up against the limits of what the world would have allowed her. A white girl spitting hip hop lyrics simply for the love of it; a tiny woman with a throaty, voice who refused to mutter in a world that rewards women for muttering in inarticulate, Minnie Mouse tones.</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">Her words moved me and now after hearing about her death, and the work that she has left behind, I am deeply grieved. How to end this post, when it feels there are not enough of the right words to honor this woman who built her life on words. When I heard Shannon read, when she shouted with no shame "Fuck me like my skin" in a crowded theater of slam fans, I thought to myself, "Now that's a woman who will say and write whatever the fuck she wants to, feelings and consequences be damned." I know that I have not always done this for myself; many of us don't. We long to write, feel it in our blood, and yet, when it comes time to put pen to page, whether it's a blank computer screen or our journals, we balk. </span><span style="font-style: italic; font-family: georgia;">I can't write that! I shouldn't even have thought it. Maybe I can soften it up. My mom's feelings would be so hurt</span><span style="font-family: georgia;">...and so it goes.</span><br /><span style="font-family: georgia;">I want to live my life, write, and move in this world however I want to, feelings and consequences be damned. There is no time to wait, for a better time, to avoid hurting feelings, for the sake of being nice. The world deserves all that we have to give, our most true and honest selves, while we are on this planet. I believe with all of my heart that Shannon Leigh walked this earth as her truest self, perhaps not perfect, but honest in all of her flaws and beauty. For that I thank her and wish her love and blessings as she crosses over to the other side. She's eternal now and making the heavens shake with her fierceness. Peace, Shannon. Thank you for everything.</span>Courtney Desiree Morrishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04877422685485639690noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20271824.post-52593253896325246532008-07-13T22:53:00.001-05:002008-07-13T23:05:00.968-05:00Too sweet for words...<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://meseintosalud.wordpress.com/2008/07/06/something-like-this/"><img style="margin: 0pt 0pt 10px 10px; float: right; cursor: pointer; width: 300px; height: 200px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgMFOaBJ7bsVeTZfty9LB5qe-NVwGueCKYFQ7XsQieFPAJx161AByEVqAJKaJtB6hW7GBoU40N5btPMwyir1LLueAZvbTE1tKDZJqCvb6_fw_xyivOEAFJCKl3f57evXcidVV8r/s320/pis-12.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5222714113353824722" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">So follow the link because I can't type about it without getting a little bit </span><span style="font-style: italic;font-family:georgia;" >verklept</span><span style="font-family:georgia;">...my homegirl, Juli wrote about our wedding/relationship on her blog, </span><span style="font-style: italic;font-family:georgia;" >Sentimos/We feels it</span><span style="font-family:georgia;">, and it's really just very moving in its simplicity. Click on the image to check it out and see her awesome blog (w/ amazing graphic design, all done by her) for more of her pithy reflections on the nature of life, love, and the pursuit of liberation. If you love it, give her a shout, artists need to know their work is valued.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">Love and blessings to all,</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;">c.</span>Courtney Desiree Morrishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04877422685485639690noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20271824.post-80620474907757470462008-05-30T18:33:00.000-05:002008-05-31T00:41:10.880-05:00Growing Up Army<a style="font-family: georgia;" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiOmM5iZSc7st2I0zdCgsuGm48ZVT3ASC_Y30dUCTffhx-z3isEzRKNZ0QAuZEqCpcKj1gmov73sOHio0GubZDqlK0lLTZs4xOEdQD7YmkzB8Ng-fnB8_dak9RIXZ_Q9B7YtjhW/s1600-h/100_1386.JPG"><img style="margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; float: left; cursor: pointer; width: 296px; height: 222px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiOmM5iZSc7st2I0zdCgsuGm48ZVT3ASC_Y30dUCTffhx-z3isEzRKNZ0QAuZEqCpcKj1gmov73sOHio0GubZDqlK0lLTZs4xOEdQD7YmkzB8Ng-fnB8_dak9RIXZ_Q9B7YtjhW/s320/100_1386.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5206402799738829810" border="0" /></a><br /><div style="text-align: justify;font-family:georgia;">I am an Army brat.<br /><br />I have lived in Florida, Texas, Louisiana, California, and Germany, courtesy of Uncle Sam. By the time I was nine I had lived in and visited more places and flown in more airplanes than some of the members of my family. Watching soldiers pack up to travel to different places far away from their families with no indication of when they might return never struck me as particularly odd. People came down with "PCS" (Permanent Change of Station) orders on a regular basis. We moved often.<br /><br />I lived in <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">Killeen</span>, TX located next to Fort Hood, one of the largest standing military bases in the world, when the Gulf War began in 1990. I knew very little about the conflict, only that <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">Sadaam</span> Hussein (my Generation's version of Hitler -- a homicidal, anti-democratic megalomaniac that we could hate with fierce American pride) was a bad guy that had to be punished by the U.S. I watched <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">Killeen</span>, empty, as embattled wives left the city, returning to their parents to await the return of their husbands. We lived in a ghost town and prayed for a quick ending. We wrapped yellow ribbons around our arms at school, tiny chests swelling with pride. We would win this battle, we were tiny child soldiers with no clue as to what all the fighting was about, only that we should be proud. We were Americans.<br /><br />My chest no longer swells with pride at being American. I could feel the hateful eyes on me when I attended my baby brother's high school graduation and refused to stand and sing the National Anthem. I could only imagine the thoughts running through the minds of the other audience members. No doubt they guessed (rightfully) that I am anti-war and assumed (wrongly) that I hate soldiers and this country. I am the daughter of infantry division soldiers -- the people who often see the most action, are the most exposed and vulnerable, and most likely to die in combat. I don't hate this country and I don't hate the men and women in uniform who serve it. But I am working to change this country and helping to create a world in which the sons and daughters of poor and working-class folks, especially Black and Brown folks, won't be sacrificed for Christmas bonuses, nepotism, and the Good <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">Ol</span>' Boys Club that passes for our government these days. I can't be proud until I live in a world that is not dominated by the U.S.<br /><br />These days going home, I am ambivalent. I am deeply opposed to this war, but mourn the loss of so many young men and women, 4,083 to be exact. <span style="font-style: italic;">You sat next to me at graduation, it wasn't supposed to be this way. </span>You sigh with relief, as the high school sweetheart you left behind, writes you to say that he is okay, is doing well, and is finally ready to let you go. <span style="font-style: italic;">She has been holding her breath, praying a small prayer of thanks. You have come home. You were lucky.</span><br /><br />They are all special and we cannot lose another one.<br /><br />When we talk about the cost of war we do not talk about what it means for families to be separated for months at a time. The constant worry that a missed phone call date means that your partner is lying dead in the desert on the other side of the planet. Heartbreak is a part of <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">war's</span> collateral damage. All over <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">Killeen</span>, you see cars with bumper stickers stating "Half my heart is in Iraq." I walk into the grocery store wearing a black t-shirt with George Bush sitting in between Hitler and Mussolini. At a glance I am worlds apart from wives mourning the absence of their husbands. But I know that this assessment is only skin-deep. The bumper sticker reveals as little about them as my t-shirt does. My t-shirt doesn't reveal that my first love was a West Pointer, that both my parents served in the military, think it was one of the best choices either of them made, but explicitly forbid my brother and I to join the military urging us to choose college instead. <span style="font-style: italic;">Nothing wrong with serving your country but some of these rich white kids should have a chance to do it at least once instead of sending their servants' sons and daughters to do this country's dirty work</span>. And the bumper sticker doesn't reveal all of the wives who curse George Bush's name every morning and are hoping that the next president will put his or her exit strategy into action as soon as they enter the Oval Office. The bumper sticker doesn't tell how much some of these folks long for peace.<br /><br />I am opposed to this war and that will never change. But I recognize that for any kind of peace to be meaningful we must all begin to look at each other with new eyes that affirm our collective humanity and our need for sanity on this deeply troubled planet. We can begin this work when we can look at each other, across our differences and realize that anti-war, anti-imperialist, anti-racist, pro-woman Army brat can see the humanity of a soldier and an Army wife waiting for his return and they can recognize hers. Can we do this work? Absolutely. Will we do it? Only time will tell. In the meantime, I continue to pray for an end to this war and welcome the day when the Armed Forces will no longer need to exist. A <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_6">utopian</span> goal to be sure, but they are the only ones worth having.<br /></div>Courtney Desiree Morrishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04877422685485639690noreply@blogger.com0